Need some advice please.

[anna29]

Right.

I took time out - spoke to hubby, spoke to GP.


We have agreed on a few things. I am not to be pushed. I still do not do blood glucose testing.I go through enough pain with the M.E so having a prick in my finger 2-3 times a day will push me over the edge :lol:
I will eat, when I am hungry, I low carb. If I am not hungry, I do not get pushed to eat. I am to start on tiny portions (this is how I recovered in the first place) I am on blended food. If I am pushed I refuse even more, I know it is stupid but it is how our brains work..

I do not want to see a counseller at the moment, but when I am ready I can.
GP to come here and supervise weigh in.

Those who have offered for me to PM them if things get tough, thank you. Also thank you for calming me down. Yes it is a big issue having to weigh things, it is like having OCD. Going round making sure things are switched off, etc. Or if you checked your blood glucose, as some of you do, and suddenly you can't! It is the same thing really. I am not having a go - just asking those who suggested not weighing food out to put yourselves in those shoes.

But thank you for your advice. It is hard being bed bound, it is hard not being able to do exercise like I use to. I use to walk 10 miles daily, every day - my main ambition was to run the London Marathon. Then one day, I got out of bed and collapsed - 6 months later, I got diagnosed with M.E as they didn't find anything else wrong.

I would also like you to take this as an apology for having a big massive meltdown and losing it over the weekend.

THANK YOU ALL.

Hello sassywriter.

A bit of time out - to take stock of things is the ideal thing to do
when feeling bulldozed or overwhelmed with things :thumbup:

Moving only - within your own comfort zone 'IS' needed when things get complicated , as you have found is best with yourself.
I do understand and get 'why' this has to be ...
In this action plan used - you HAVE indeed progress with both your husband and GP .
This alone proves to do things only when you are able to 'works' well for you.

The energy sapping of M.E is powerful and drains persons heavily both physically and mentally .
The weaker you feel physicallly and anyone pushing you against the wall with demands to do things
the more the anorexia will then kick in .
It is a real catch22 for you I understand ...

Little portions of food you fancy as and when you feel ready/hungry
with no pressure or heavy duty demands placed upon you .
Space and time will give way to you feeling stronger and ready to work towards this .
You WILL begin to make progress gradually within your own comfort zone

Please do continue to ask any questions you feel/need to .
There 'are' lovely caring supportive members here willing to offer you support and encouragement.

The feel free to PM me offer still stands sassy...
Am here - should you wish to PM .

Much love and thoughts .
Anna.x