HSSS yes thanks for hearing me.
what goes wrong is the perfect question. Probably defeatism, impatience, depression, wanting to eat socially (I sound like a smoker, probably similar addiction).
bacon and double cream hold no joy for me. It’s always been about the very worst (savoury) carbs available. I think that I am completely addicted to food and have used it to cheer myself up for years. If it’s going to kill me then what do I cheer myself up with now? Yay your kidneys didn’t fail today!
The rise after meals is interesting. I’ve had exactly the same lunch for 4 days this week (measured, pre-made) and the change in blood sugar has been different each time. (Down 1, stayed the same, up 2). Obviously still getting used to not shoving rubbish in my pie hole. But got my first target reading today before lunch (7.8). And my insulin went down to 8 units yesterday. So as I keep saying, I am happy with how to eat right. I just have a deathly fear of failing to adhere to it.
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