Hi Everyone
Well, its happened.
So while at an appointment with a nurse earlier this week for a different issue, I asked him to check my blood sugar level. Not good. instant appointment found to see GP next week. Presumed type 2, but To be confirmed by GP
I have a history of gestational diabetes (with insulin) x2, my Dad is type 2 (but is quite thin and there is a genetic element) , and I also have a history of pancreatitis because of a uniquely plumbed pancreas, and I think the last round of pancreatitis may have been the final straw. Along with a significant life stress, which I have been coping with by eating chocolate, and a selection of other sugary carbs.
I asked the nurse to check my blood sugar as I had been feeling gross, and I have tried using my monitor from 10 years ago but did not believe the number it was giving.
My numbers this week have not been good mostly 10's up to 18
I have been trying to exercise. Swimming 1.6 kms most mornings. I would prefer to walk but my hips are stuffed and I will need surgeries for them next year. A spine specialist has also recommended an si joint fusion as that has inflammation too.
I am gluten free as well as a selection of other things - low fodmap essentially.
I know that I need to look after myself, and that the exercise is a good start - I can see it in my numbers.
My problem right now is that I just don't have the energy- mental or physical- for managing my food as I need to, and the only way I was making it through the week was with the sugar.
Part of my brain says this will be fine, and give yourself some time to adjust, this can be managed, along with every thing else I'm dealing with.
But the other part is grieving, and is saying I don't think I can cope with another 'thing' on my plate.
I'm sure with better blood sugar numbers that my brain will be able to cope with more, and that life will actually get easier.
But right now, I'm in denial, with high numbers. And I can't throw a tantrum in front of my husband and kids, and sick parents. But I hope I can here. This sucks.
Any tips for getting on with it?
Well, its happened.
So while at an appointment with a nurse earlier this week for a different issue, I asked him to check my blood sugar level. Not good. instant appointment found to see GP next week. Presumed type 2, but To be confirmed by GP
I have a history of gestational diabetes (with insulin) x2, my Dad is type 2 (but is quite thin and there is a genetic element) , and I also have a history of pancreatitis because of a uniquely plumbed pancreas, and I think the last round of pancreatitis may have been the final straw. Along with a significant life stress, which I have been coping with by eating chocolate, and a selection of other sugary carbs.
I asked the nurse to check my blood sugar as I had been feeling gross, and I have tried using my monitor from 10 years ago but did not believe the number it was giving.
My numbers this week have not been good mostly 10's up to 18

I have been trying to exercise. Swimming 1.6 kms most mornings. I would prefer to walk but my hips are stuffed and I will need surgeries for them next year. A spine specialist has also recommended an si joint fusion as that has inflammation too.
I am gluten free as well as a selection of other things - low fodmap essentially.
I know that I need to look after myself, and that the exercise is a good start - I can see it in my numbers.
My problem right now is that I just don't have the energy- mental or physical- for managing my food as I need to, and the only way I was making it through the week was with the sugar.
Part of my brain says this will be fine, and give yourself some time to adjust, this can be managed, along with every thing else I'm dealing with.
But the other part is grieving, and is saying I don't think I can cope with another 'thing' on my plate.
I'm sure with better blood sugar numbers that my brain will be able to cope with more, and that life will actually get easier.
But right now, I'm in denial, with high numbers. And I can't throw a tantrum in front of my husband and kids, and sick parents. But I hope I can here. This sucks.
Any tips for getting on with it?