@coby - So you understand you have Diabetes, and you have to accept it, because it is not going to go away. So, you have to get it under control. I see you take Metformin 500mg twice daily, and do you take these with your food? You really ought to invest in a Blood Glucose Meter - this is a vital piece of a Diabetics equipment.
Stop drinking anything sweet, use artificial sweeteners in Tea and Coffee, and drink more water. Exercise and Diet is essential for getting blood sugars down and losing weight. There are threads on the Forum that have all kinds of diets, and threads that members post each day what foods they have eaten. Read around the different threads and ask questions if you don't understand, you will get answers from other members. And you could write things down in a notebook, and refer to your notes whenever. A lot of members follow the LCHF Diet and here is a link for you to have a read:
http://www.dietdoctor.com/low-carb/60-seconds