Welcome to the forum. I hope that you'll find any answers to the questions troubling you here. I was diagnosed with TD1 on January 1st, 2015. I hadn't quite dealt with it until a few months ago... And i can say for sure that yeah, life is going to seem rough for some time. Especially when there's no reason for it to happen in the first place. Like others said before, don't blame yourself. TD1 is an auto-immune disease and we don't know what caused it in the first place. As time goes by, you'll see that managing your blood glucose will become easier and easier. Eventually, it'll become a part of your everyday life, like washing your teeth. No one was perfectly fine in the first weeks of dealing with it. What matters is that you don't let it get to you. No door has closed because of diabetes. Keep regulating your health and you'll get back on track in no time. What i've learnt from my experience so far is that i can't do TOO much of anything. And that has given me a nice balance in my life. Which is something everyone should have in my opinion, not just diabetics. Anyway, too much of rumbling for me. Have a nice one and hopefully we can all help here, in this site. Take care!!