Welcome to the club. From here on it's not as bad as you will be expecting. Yes a massive shock upfront then confusion, expect a little (or a lot) of depression, anger at why me etc. Just know it will pass and things will return to normal (whatever that is). In the type 1 forum we have all been there done that and come out the other side (some so young they have no recollection and you will be one of the oldest to get it. Look at it this way you have had all those additional years of all that sugar fun. It will take about a year for things to really settle. You may get a honeymoon, or partial (Diabetic free) for a time (a few days to who knows maybe 6 months or more). You only get one of those. I had thought about divorcing my diabetes and remarrying it (only if I had to as it's mother is a real #@%^*), to get a few more honeymoons.