- Messages
- 9
I sound a right catch when I put it like that hey?
So I’ve had T1 Diabetes 10years now and my control has reached an all time low; which is frustrating in itself as in the first 5 years I looked after it, and through both pregnancies I had perfect control so I KNOW I can do it... but something is stopping me?
I know my diabetes and my mental health are linked - I have PTSD anyway but my depression and anxiety are really bad at the moment - i spend most of the time putting on a mask and shutting my problems out and I feel like im running on empty. The GP is working on that - im on meds, seeing both a psychologist and a counsellor, and I have given up work to concentrate on my health... but its still not working.
When i have a good day i want to be on top of my diabetes and i test my sugars and count carbs and inject and i feel like i can do it, i can get better... but when i have a bad day i just think **** it; i dont test, i dont inject (or if i do i guesstimate), i dont eat properly i just snack constantly and everything goes out the window. Once im off track i find it so hard to get back on top again, and i have so many more bad days than i do good.
The latest thing now too is not sleeping - i was wide awake for 42 hours straight recently and its freaking me out. I dont ever really drink, i dont smoke and ive never done drugs so there isnt anything keeping me up as such. Ive tried napping and cutting out caffeine and nit looking at screens or eating before bed - you name it ive tried it and its still not working. J cant take sleeping tablets as my young still wakes twice a night and my partner works away all the time so i cant sleep through and not wake up for him.
I dont know what im expecting by posting on here but im at a loss of what to do - nothing seems to be helping my mental health or my diabetes, and now my sleep too. Can anyone say it gets better, that you can get through this, that theres some miraculous option ive not tried? Im exhausted with everything and i cant see how to make things okay again.
Sorry for the long post x
So I’ve had T1 Diabetes 10years now and my control has reached an all time low; which is frustrating in itself as in the first 5 years I looked after it, and through both pregnancies I had perfect control so I KNOW I can do it... but something is stopping me?
I know my diabetes and my mental health are linked - I have PTSD anyway but my depression and anxiety are really bad at the moment - i spend most of the time putting on a mask and shutting my problems out and I feel like im running on empty. The GP is working on that - im on meds, seeing both a psychologist and a counsellor, and I have given up work to concentrate on my health... but its still not working.
When i have a good day i want to be on top of my diabetes and i test my sugars and count carbs and inject and i feel like i can do it, i can get better... but when i have a bad day i just think **** it; i dont test, i dont inject (or if i do i guesstimate), i dont eat properly i just snack constantly and everything goes out the window. Once im off track i find it so hard to get back on top again, and i have so many more bad days than i do good.
The latest thing now too is not sleeping - i was wide awake for 42 hours straight recently and its freaking me out. I dont ever really drink, i dont smoke and ive never done drugs so there isnt anything keeping me up as such. Ive tried napping and cutting out caffeine and nit looking at screens or eating before bed - you name it ive tried it and its still not working. J cant take sleeping tablets as my young still wakes twice a night and my partner works away all the time so i cant sleep through and not wake up for him.
I dont know what im expecting by posting on here but im at a loss of what to do - nothing seems to be helping my mental health or my diabetes, and now my sleep too. Can anyone say it gets better, that you can get through this, that theres some miraculous option ive not tried? Im exhausted with everything and i cant see how to make things okay again.
Sorry for the long post x