ladybird64, battling difficult circumstances and coming off of any amount of sugar is really, really challenging. It's when we most need time and space, and daily, ongoing support from those who care about our well being, and equally important, to create distance and separation from those who disrupt our lives and deplete our reserves.
Gaining 6 pounds is not little league. I am, however, at an advantage because I'm surrounded by people who are caring, thoughtful, and considerate, well most of the time. It makes all the difference. The one thing I've had to learn the hard way, over, and over again, is that I can't change people, only my own thoughts and actions. I can reframe what's happening around me, and make small, sometimes big, changes to my circumstances, though it's a slow, slow process. I got through some challenging health issues this past year, finally...
It sounds like you're going through something big, perhaps faced with a lot of "unknowns" and are making the best decisions you can each day. It's not easy riding out storms. Please know my thoughts are with you as you struggle to regain the helm of your life.
Lots of caring, supportive people here. I hope you've made a meaningful connection with at least one person here. If not, keep trying...