Bunny2shoes
So sorry to hear about loss,words you are probably sick of hearing at this stage.my wife and me have been through this twice and it will get easier but you will never forget about your loss and the anger you feel about heavens gain of a new angel.
Our first loss was in January 2010 we'd trudged through the snow very excited as it was the 12 week scan and our 12 year old son was with us to witness his siblings scan and as me and my wife are over 40 we felt blessed to have another life on the way. As the scan was being performed it seemed an age to find the heart beat and then the lady told us that she wanted a 2nd opinion and then it was confirmed that my wife had suffered a silent miscarriage.The devastation you feel is terrible and numbing. We were given the options available to my wife and as she had come around to the idea of a new baby it was decided that she would have the operation you have had.It was very quick as she was taken to the day ward and the procedure took place that evening and the feeling as I left my wife alone (as it was too late for her to be discharged )will never be forgotten,we had gone in just before lunch expecting to come home with some exciting scan pics and I left alone and empty handed.
We carried on trying pretty much as soon as she felt able and fell pregnant within 5 months.This time we took things cautiously and when the midwife came to our home to fill in paperwork for the new pregnancy my wife just didn't feel pregnant and the midwife was great she said that she trusted my wife's instinct and arranged for a scan it was early so no chance of seeing a heartbeat but it gave the anti natal team an idea of age and they took a blood test.She was told to return in 2 weeks which we did and yet again she'd lost the baby.This time my wife chose to miscarry naturally but this never happened so she had another procedure.At this time I was starting to think it was maybe my fault because when our son was born I wasn't diabetic and also we were a lot older so it really played on my mind but we kept trying.Then in October 2011 we had a beautiful healthy baby girl,I can't help grinning as she sits next to me trying to play her keyboard she got from Santa.
Please share your feelings with your partner,that was what we did and it helped us both get through the losses.Many men feel its too hard to talk about the loss but it must be done and together you will get through this seemingly never ending dark tunnel.
Whenever our daughter cries and has tears rolling down her face I tell her that they are kisses from the angels we lost and they are watching over her.
We both wish you luck and hope you are as lucky as we've been and you have the baby you want.
Best wishes,
Adam.