Hi
Your post caught my attention as I too am pregnant and petrified. Now 15 weeks. Up to 12 weeks no one from the diabetic staff contacted me and i really felt alone. I have done the dafne training and felt confident about changing my insulin doses. My insulin requirement has dropped dramatically - halved even and still experiencing daily hypos, which is a struggle. I understand at around 26 weeks, if not before, the body's need for insulin dramatically increases. Im scared witless that this will mean high sugar levels for me and a very large baby.
Interesting the sonogragher commented on the size of your baby and re downs. Ours didn't and all the literature provided states different measurements for each stage in any event so I've decided to listen to what the consultant tells me rather than reading too much into mother and baby magazines etc. I was told the test results would take up to 2 working weeks. 3 working weeks later some of the tests are outstanding. I'm treating this as a good thing. If there was a concern they would ring.
I go for my second scan tomorrow. Fingers crossed everything is well. At the last meeting left feeling that until the 20 week scan shows no abnormalities they weren't investing the time and effort. But I have very high expectations of them as I have always felt their expectations of me are high. I felt the meeting went along the lines of you're doing well, the scan looks good BUT here's your risks. so i went from elation to anxiety very quickly.
My bump started to show around 13 weeks. It keeps shrinking and growing. When it looks bigger i worry the baby is getting too big too quickly and when it looks small i worry something has happened and its not growing.
I read some positive stories on the dafne online website - one lady has 3 children and another has 2. I have found the experience so challenging and worrying that I'm amazed anyone revisits it. But these ladies and others I've found make it all sound very bearable.
I also find everyone (non diabetics) like to tell you that your baby is going to be big. As if that helps. It just makes me worry more. I feel i'm being judged for the choices i'm making. But in some ways it has made me even more determined. We can only do our best and take it a day at a time. Sometimes the experts need reminding of that, there's a world of difference between theory and practice.
Don't be too hard on yourself. You sound determined to get it right and you will do, it just takes time. When I feel my best is not good enough, I imagine what will be in a years time, when the baby is here. It helps.
Your post caught my attention as I too am pregnant and petrified. Now 15 weeks. Up to 12 weeks no one from the diabetic staff contacted me and i really felt alone. I have done the dafne training and felt confident about changing my insulin doses. My insulin requirement has dropped dramatically - halved even and still experiencing daily hypos, which is a struggle. I understand at around 26 weeks, if not before, the body's need for insulin dramatically increases. Im scared witless that this will mean high sugar levels for me and a very large baby.
Interesting the sonogragher commented on the size of your baby and re downs. Ours didn't and all the literature provided states different measurements for each stage in any event so I've decided to listen to what the consultant tells me rather than reading too much into mother and baby magazines etc. I was told the test results would take up to 2 working weeks. 3 working weeks later some of the tests are outstanding. I'm treating this as a good thing. If there was a concern they would ring.
I go for my second scan tomorrow. Fingers crossed everything is well. At the last meeting left feeling that until the 20 week scan shows no abnormalities they weren't investing the time and effort. But I have very high expectations of them as I have always felt their expectations of me are high. I felt the meeting went along the lines of you're doing well, the scan looks good BUT here's your risks. so i went from elation to anxiety very quickly.
My bump started to show around 13 weeks. It keeps shrinking and growing. When it looks bigger i worry the baby is getting too big too quickly and when it looks small i worry something has happened and its not growing.
I read some positive stories on the dafne online website - one lady has 3 children and another has 2. I have found the experience so challenging and worrying that I'm amazed anyone revisits it. But these ladies and others I've found make it all sound very bearable.
I also find everyone (non diabetics) like to tell you that your baby is going to be big. As if that helps. It just makes me worry more. I feel i'm being judged for the choices i'm making. But in some ways it has made me even more determined. We can only do our best and take it a day at a time. Sometimes the experts need reminding of that, there's a world of difference between theory and practice.
Don't be too hard on yourself. You sound determined to get it right and you will do, it just takes time. When I feel my best is not good enough, I imagine what will be in a years time, when the baby is here. It helps.
