Hi Pauline, welcome to the forum, of course it is normal to feel a whole range of emotions, depressing, disbelief, anger, all sorts
Read posts in the forum as much as possible, check Success Stories and you will soon see that it is not all doom and gloom, diabetes can be controlled by you, not the other way round and you can live a really healthy life, maybe even healthier and fitter than before, so dont despair.
You will find that the more you learn about diabetes the better you will feel, much more confident too.
Dont be shy, ask questions, that is what we are here for, helping each other out and finding solutions to any issues, there is always someone with just the right answer.
All the best
Karen