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Rollercoaster

ivm18

ivm18

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Type of diabetes
Parent
Treatment type
Insulin
Emotions and blood sugar readings are quiet alike, nonstop ups and downs. Sometimes, I feel like jumping off this 'rollercoaster life' is the easiest way to end it all. More often I fought the urge to let go off the rails, instead I tightened my grip on the steel bars and go on in this never ending rollercoaster ride of life. Almost 4 months into this life felt like its been a decade or more. My son's strength and courage are my defense shield from harshness of this disease, it is him who has it, and yet he is the one who encourage me to go on with our lives. What a shameful mother I am.
 
No, not at all. It is natural that a mother would be worried and depressed when one of her children has a long term condition.You are new to this; 4 months isn't a long time and it must be a constant headache to you. Can you go and see a counsellor, with your son if necessary? You need someone who understands your fears and worries to "let it all out". The old saying "A problem shared is a problem halved" is very true.

Try and be strong for your son's sake..
 
Thank you @Arab Horse means so much to me.This forum helps me a lot, and people here do really understand what we are going through.
God bless.
 
It is difficult enough for me as I am elderly and it is me who has the diabetes. It must be even worse if it is your child; as a mother we want to protect our children and sadly some things are beyond our control. All you can do now is help your son with the right, delicious food and a healthy lifestyle. He sounds a lovely person; a credit to the way you have brought him up that he helps you rather than feel pity for himself. I am sure he will be a success whatever path in life he takes.
 
All I can say is thank you for your advises, my feelings lightened a bit knowing you understand. I hope you're doing great.
:)
 
ivm18 said:
All I can say is thank you for your advises, my feelings lightened a bit knowing you understand. I hope you're doing great.
:)
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Thank you, I have just started the ND so gnawing the edges of the keyboard and anything else that looks vaguely edible but apart from the hunger no bad side effects. I assume your son is a T1 although I have no idea how old he is; my son is 48 (going on 49) and my daughter is just turned 47 - that dates me a bit, not just over the hill but half way down the other side now!!!

Take care and give your son a big hug from em.
 
Hi ivm18

you must not think like that at all please -- yes we all know Diabetes is not always a picnic in the park and and being a mum will bring guilt feelings sometimes - it is only natural that protective instinct.
but remember that being diabetic does not alter who we are -- it is something to look after and keep in control and LIVE LIVE LIVE the rest of our lives like everyone else does. - I know I have done for the past 43 years !!:)
 
I laughedat gnawing the edges of the keyboard :joyful:
my son is almost 14, it's his birthday on the 24th June. He's in grade 8, my daughter is 19 and in her 3rd yr. in university. Before diagnosis, our family life is simple and happy. We live in the semi rural area, i love to cook for my family, i work part time in my parents business, and yeah life before was simple but we're happy and contented, until the day my son was diagnosed and everythings changed. I know i mourned, still mourning for the lost of our once healthy family. I just cannot accept it
now, and i may sounds a crazy i know
that, sometimes i feel good, sometimes
sad, depressed, angry, hurt every
emotions that human could possibly feel. I am ashamed to my son that i feel this way, although i hide my emotions to him, but i know he knows, he feels it.
 
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