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Carptastic

Carptastic

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North Wales
Type of diabetes
Type 1
Treatment type
Insulin
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Hi all,
i need some advice here im really struggling with depression (im already on medication for it) its just getting worse atm im a T1 my numbers were up last week on my hbac1 0no matter what i do it never works out i have got to the point where i am hardly doing my insulin i said to the wife this morning theres no point! its been heading down for a few months but the last couple of weeks terrible. i rang my docs told them i was falling asleep for no reason etc said i felt down they sent me for bloods now theres more worries got to have more etc.
i dont want to put more on my wife she does enough....
ive sat here in tears writing this telling myself to man up

Any ideas?
 
I am so sorry, that you are feeling this way, @Carptastic. I can’t advise on T1 issues, as I have T2, but I know how it felt when I was so low emotionally. It is so hard to get out of that helpless mindset.
I don’t think it helps telling yourself “to man up”. You are not well, if you had a broken limb you would seek treatment not best yourself upnabout how it restricted your welbeing. So you need to do the same to heal your mind. Can you tell the doctor how depressed you feel? Really emphasise how it impacts on your life. Not just saying “I feel a bit down”, but explaining about the tears and feeling of no point in using insulin. Which is more than just being a bit down.

You need to have compassion for yourself, and seek the specific help you need.
Hope you can do that, and please report back to let us know how you are.
 
Carptastic said:
Hi all,
i need some advice here im really struggling with depression (im already on medication for it) its just getting worse atm im a T1 my numbers were up last week on my hbac1 0no matter what i do it never works out i have got to the point where i am hardly doing my insulin i said to the wife this morning theres no point! its been heading down for a few months but the last couple of weeks terrible. i rang my docs told them i was falling asleep for no reason etc said i felt down they sent me for bloods now theres more worries got to have more etc.
i dont want to put more on my wife she does enough....
ive sat here in tears writing this telling myself to man up

Any ideas?
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Hi,

I have T1 and the low mood is definitely something that resonates.

When I am balancing T1 and my mood concomitantly, I try and focus on the small battles. I cannot force myself to be in a better mood but I can have my 11 units of Levemir in the morning. When I can’t get out of bed, I always have my insulin near to hand so that I don’t have to commit to the impossible task of hauling myself downstairs.

I have also found that if I can manage the smaller tasks of injecting, it does help with my routine (even if the depressive symptoms aren’t ameliorated).
 
Carptastic said:
Hi all,
i need some advice here im really struggling with depression (im already on medication for it) its just getting worse atm im a T1 my numbers were up last week on my hbac1 0no matter what i do it never works out i have got to the point where i am hardly doing my insulin i said to the wife this morning theres no point! its been heading down for a few months but the last couple of weeks terrible. i rang my docs told them i was falling asleep for no reason etc said i felt down they sent me for bloods now theres more worries got to have more etc.
i dont want to put more on my wife she does enough....
ive sat here in tears writing this telling myself to man up

Any ideas?
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Hello, i'm sadden to hear how unwell and upset you are. I hope you are getting the health care you need? Be kind to yourself, and take your insulin. The one thing i've learnt is type 1 diabetes isn't easy, it doesn't always work out, it's frustrating, and I often wonder 'why can't I get this right'? But I do my best, that's all we can do. Take care.
 
Carptastic,
As a T1 I can fully relate with how you are feeling. Personally I use meditation and exercise to help with my emotional wellbeing.
Completely agree with Pipp our Emotional wellbeing is as important as our physical wellbeing in fact the two are closely linked.
I find a simple walk and some fresh air for 20 mins or more really helps and can be useful in Lowering any high sugars.
the 'Man up' phrase always makes me smile as yes we need to Man up by recognising our feelings are in need of some TLC, be nice to you. seek some counselling or if you are able look for app's and web sites that can support you.

I have asked for counselling myself on numerous occasions I was pointed toward an on line and mobile program called silver cloud, I had to speak to my Diabetic G.P. practice nurse to gain access. It is well worth it if this works for you.

you really are not alone in this remember it takes sunshine and rain to make a rainbow!

look after you.
 
Hi all thankyou for your replies i have spoken to my doctor today i will be seeing a diabetis physcologist as soon as possible, i have really struggled with it since diagnosed in the lockdown in June 2020 i was diagnosed then but i didn't see anyone for over 12 months when i discharged from hospital.
i do have other under lying problems also and have been on pretty much most anti depressants etc

I dont normally post things like i did the other day but i wasn't in a good place at all, im struggling with weight gain etc from the insulin, im struggling with my sleep pattern its non existent, also other things to.

Im just glad i have some good people around me also who put up with my mood swings etc at least im here today because of them x

Ihad my bloods done they found issues with fatty liver so i need more tests and my hb1 has risen from 69 to 77

Thanks for all your kind responses
 
Look after yourself @Carptastic. I am T2 so can’t fully understand but it must have been quite a shock to get diagnosed at the peak of the pandemic when everyone was scared anyway and finding it hard to get medical help. You really have done well in those circumstances. I hope the referral doesn’t take too long but meanwhile take your meds and be kind to yourself.
 
Hi all, i had my first appointment yesterday with the physicologist, i was optimistic but it went well everything we chatted about and how i had felt etc ive had a hard few weeks but hopefully now im stepping in the right direction, ive re started my toujeo from last night after a big break unknowing i was doing more harm than good, we are just going to take it step by step but the first and biggest step is that im safe.
Thanks to you all here for your kind words hopefully one day i can return them or pass them onto someone also
 
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