i felt the same , just had the diagnosis less than a month , as for blood monitoring I feel it is vital , my doctor seems not to agree , I was left with more questions than answers there , however , I reckoned for me it was too many carbs over the weekend , sat with a small bowl of nachos and dip twice , also eating was erratic , exercise is a great lift , but again , the blood sugar question , night before last I could have grazed the local chippy clean after an hour of aerobic workouts , settled for veg soup , if you are looking for a free meter see the link on the forum for glucomine they are giving starter kits out as freebies ,http://www.glucomen.co.uk/index.php?page=request , if you are trying to lose the weight (forgive me if you are not ) you up the veg and protein , use carrot , celery and pepper strips for snacks as well as nuts but not cashews or peanuts salted or otherwise and a small handful at a time ,bananas, cherry tomatoes or soreen malt loaf is a tasty snack , this will boost energy , but you really need to know what your meds and diet are doing to you ,the main reason for myself who utterly hates needles being prepared to stick one into myself to check sugar levels , is there a local support group near you ? , I learned more about the condition in a half hour from mine than I got from the doctors surgery , all the best HBD