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I was diagnosed at 27, am 36 now. Took years to get pregnant with my daughter. I saw my team weekly at a pre conception clinic, the nurse I saw was horrific. She wouldn't offer help or guidance but continually told me I was a bad mum for even thinking about pregnancy. I moved hospitals!
New team was great and after two years in total, I got the green light. A while later I got pregnant.
Now, am trying for green light for baby no 2. Since January, been working my blinking bum off (hard not to swear) to get Hba1c right. In July, it was 55. I was told I was having too many hypos and had lost awareness so to let it go, be less strict etc to regain awareness. Since then, bloods are mostly stable but am still told I have too many hypos.
Am sat here now on my own crying, because I don't know what else I can do anymore to make this happen. The team I have don't realise the urgency I have and just keep telling me I am a baby, (in terms of age) and not to worry. I do worry. It took ages for me to get pregnant and I had an ectopic and miscarriages in the meantime. I feel like they keep me at arm's length and don't take me seriously. I am supposed to have email contact with someone every two weeks but it rarely happens. If it does, I am just told I am having too many hypos or need to keep going or told about future changes that might happen. I am ten months down the line and I feel no nearer. I feel like they are totally in control of my family and I feel like giving up on the whole plan of having another baby.
The awful nurse from previously, really impressed on me how any Hba1c that wasn't perfect, would result in a life of pain for a baby who would be born with serious difficulties. I can't hack that guilt. I was supposed to have my Hba1c done this month but my nurse and my consultant have both gone away for at least a month without saying anything, I heard from a dietician I emailed.
Should I just give up? My baby is 3 in the spring. I don't want to wait much longer.
Shall I move back to the horrid nurse? At least I was seen regularly in clinic.
Shall I be honest with my team?
So sorry for all this. My partner doesn't get it and nobody else I know understands. Feel so fed up.
Thank you for reading this.
New team was great and after two years in total, I got the green light. A while later I got pregnant.
Now, am trying for green light for baby no 2. Since January, been working my blinking bum off (hard not to swear) to get Hba1c right. In July, it was 55. I was told I was having too many hypos and had lost awareness so to let it go, be less strict etc to regain awareness. Since then, bloods are mostly stable but am still told I have too many hypos.
Am sat here now on my own crying, because I don't know what else I can do anymore to make this happen. The team I have don't realise the urgency I have and just keep telling me I am a baby, (in terms of age) and not to worry. I do worry. It took ages for me to get pregnant and I had an ectopic and miscarriages in the meantime. I feel like they keep me at arm's length and don't take me seriously. I am supposed to have email contact with someone every two weeks but it rarely happens. If it does, I am just told I am having too many hypos or need to keep going or told about future changes that might happen. I am ten months down the line and I feel no nearer. I feel like they are totally in control of my family and I feel like giving up on the whole plan of having another baby.
The awful nurse from previously, really impressed on me how any Hba1c that wasn't perfect, would result in a life of pain for a baby who would be born with serious difficulties. I can't hack that guilt. I was supposed to have my Hba1c done this month but my nurse and my consultant have both gone away for at least a month without saying anything, I heard from a dietician I emailed.
Should I just give up? My baby is 3 in the spring. I don't want to wait much longer.
Shall I move back to the horrid nurse? At least I was seen regularly in clinic.
Shall I be honest with my team?
So sorry for all this. My partner doesn't get it and nobody else I know understands. Feel so fed up.
Thank you for reading this.