I haven't always been on top of things, the first 20 years were the worst lol. I was in deep denial and distress over it all for an incredibly long time - far longer than most. Technology saved me, the Libre glucose sensor was first, and then a pump a few month after, because I was using the data it gave me to maximum effect and ended up injecting tiny doses up to 18 times a day. Turns out it was the finger pricking I couldn't mentally handle, and none of us realised. Ive now connected my sensor and pump via a DIY app, and have built them into an artificial pancreas system. In the two years since I got that sensor, I've gone from being practically disabled by how terrible I was feeling (physically and mentally) to feeling great and finally fulfilling my dream of training to become a paramedic. Not trying to scare you, you seem to have the right attitude from the start. I didn't, I tried to pretend it wasn't happening, didn't take my insulin and nearly died a couple of times as a result.
There is a lot to learn, there's no denying it. But take it day by day, pick the brains of people here, and you'll get there. No such thing as a stupid question, it how we learn. Had a forum like this been around when I was diagnosed (they'd barely invented the internet hahaha), I may not have fallen off a cliff with it.
Happy to chat via PM if you have questions you don't want to make public x