I would have thought with the sharing of your story about your pain, Totto's question was relevant ... she's in a position to know more than I (and many) would and probably advise so the "why are you pushing me" comment escapes me.
Mike, it's NOT just sharing about my pain, and I have asked certain people to back off a little, I will post want I feel I want or need to post as and when I feel up to it, I was hoping Totto would have experienced and understood that, hence I Sked why she appeared to be puzhing me, I answered her question, her previous post was deemed inappropriate and removed by the admin before I could even read it !
@Totto has a point. she is a recently bereaved widow. I also understand the point you get to with a loved one when you just cant help any more. ail one can do is save dignity..
@kman you have bravely chosen to document interactively with those you befriended on here, and inevitably leave behind... You have my utmost respect regarding this. & i will honour you in accordance to my own belief system.
What have you to say to Totto?
Thank You Jaylee, as for what I have to say to Totto well if you scroll back as far as her very first post to me, and read All of my replies to her, you will see I have said all I can or need too, I'm not sure what else She wants me to say to her. ?
Folk's if I Offend ANYONE on here I am genuinely Sorry, I never choose to offend,
So please Dont be offended, or upset, and if I dont answer questions please respect my personal space, and realise It will probably be answered when I feel ready to post on that subject,
Sometimes I just get tired and drained of all energy and drive, sometimes i find even the physical effort to type the posts too much to cope with, I am now strugginv at home to even do simple tasks for myself, like making a sandwich or a cup of tea, I rely way way more than I want to on Wendie and Dayne,
This is why I sometimes get defensive and feel uninclined to answer when I feel pushed, then I get a bit moody, I'm sorry, but that's me,
I know I chose to do this thread, but I still believe it is up to me as to what and when I post, and I ask you all to please respect that, and as I say, it will get posted eventually anyway LOL,
Totto I truly never meant to offend you, but I felt under too much pressure from aa few people pushing me to put what they want and when they want !
This thread has always been easy going and friendly and at my natural pace, that is all I am asking for here and now, again I'm sorry if this in anyaay made you doubt me, but please understand, at the moment I'm struggling, even to get up every morning, if this becomes a painful chore, instead of a friendly gentle paced record of my final days, rhen I find it hard to keep doing it, so please folk's can we do this at my pace, Im begging, because I really really want to do this right up to my last moment's,
Right now my hands are excruciatingly painful and stiff, to type I am using one finger holding the wrist of my right hand with my left hand, leaning on my left elbow laying in bed, i am using the finger next to the thumb, it is really painful, but the only one I'm a le to hold out straight at the moment, typing this post on the touch screen of my kindle fire,
Please be patient, please understand,
Lets all take something from this thread that will stick with us !
I love the support and kindness on here, I try to return it, I rarely get things completely right, but I DO Aways try,
Stick with me, Help me spread the warning about the hidden dangers of Dibetes, but that you can live with and beat it too,
Love, Hugs and Respect to All here,
Kevin Wendie Dayne Delta and Pork Butt.
xxx xxx xxx.