These are worrying times..

[Patrick66]

@Patrick66 , how about hot chocolate, made with cocoa powder, double cream and water, plus sweetener if you prefer it. Loads of calories, packed into a cup or mug.

Just try to keep fairly straight until this op is done. You're unlikely to become medically, concerningly underweight in the intervening period.

Please don't go overboard on the breaded/battered stuff short term, because the A1c is weighted; reflecting the most recent blood glucose performance with more a reference to the older stuff. This is why some folks can see significant improvements to their A1c score in a brief period.

Once your op is out of the way,one big, longer terms stressor will be removed from your life, leaving more energy and head space to deal with the rest of life. Don't under estimate the impact of stress, and this op has been grumbling on for a long time.

Please view eating as a job of work. For the vast majority's of the time, I really enjoy my food, but when eating to a goal (in this instance focusing on gaining weight), it can become a chore, but some chores have to be done.

I have gone overboard...probably..because I just don’t know what else to eat. I’m out of ideas and I’ve given up.

My sugar this morning was 5.4. I exercise after eating to try and stimulate my blood into getting rid of some of the glucose. In fact I seem to have had better readings after eating breaded or battered stuff than just eating a “normal” diet. As my last reading was 7.4 (in old money) and my average now is between 4.3 and 6.0 (and that’s being very generous at the higher end) any HbA1c below 57 (my last reading with the doctors) would be fine. I’d even settle for 56.

But if it’s not then I give up, again, because I know how hard I have tried these last few months and right now I don’t have anything else to give.

 

[SlimLizzy]

Against my Doctors advice I lost another three pounds in weight over the weekend.

As per usual I just wasn't really into food and even some breaded fish and breaded chicken (all I could actually stomach..) didn't push my sugars up...readings between 4.3 and 5.5. I just don't enjoy the eating "thing"..

I'm under three weeks from my operation, have to do a repeat HbA1c on Thursday, then have the Dentists for a thrice looked at but suspiciously absent from showing, abscess investigation (and I have a dental phobia) - then on Friday I have to go back for my second pre-op to answer questions already asked and submit to whatever tests they deem necessary...

I had an hours sleep last night and its now at least ten nights since I got more than a couple of hours. I have bad dreams when I do sleep or else the slightest twinge of fibromyalgia wakes me up and gets me up and I just give up going back under the duvet..

I'm tired, cant control my weight as I seem to be on a slippery slope down and can't stabilise myself and nothing seems to be going as planned.

Still...I suppose my diabetes is under control...

Good luck at the dentist. Hope they find the problem. Do you clench your teeth? This can lead to pain without an abscess. Know how you feel as its a difficult thing for me also, and I have a broken tooth appt today.