Hi guys, so this is my 2nd post on here.
I’ve been diabetic for 20 years, I was diagnosed at around 4/5 years old and I’m now 25.
All easy well and good when I was younger and I had great control, but when I was around 10/11 I had a bad episode of low blood sugar level, I remember it being 2.4 so did the usual had some carbs, checked it again 2.1, had more carbs, a little while later checked it again and it registered as LO on my machine. Full on panic mode after me and my mum had just been pumping all the carbs we could find into me. I thought that was it and I was going to die. Anyway long story short after a while we managed to get it back up thank god, but since then I’ve had really bad anxiety about my blood sugars! So I’ve always kept them higher than what they should be. I’ve been this way ever since, apart from when I was pregnant 2 years ago and the diabetes team put me on a strict routine, with my HBA1C being 14+ after a month we managed to get it down to 7.6, for me this was a massive achievement, and I was hoping I was going to be able to keep it up after my pregnant, but no, I climbed back into my same old ways and my anxiety took over me, because of this I feel hypo in around anything below 9.4 sometimes I can manage lower, I’m really strugglinh because I want to get it back on track and for me to live a normal life with normal sugars again but my anxiety takes over so much that I cave in! Obviously this isn’t good for me in the long run, I know that more than anyone, and I WANT to get it under control, I don’t want it to control me, I’ll find I’ll have days where I’m ready to do it and get it under control but I notice when my bloods say around 8ish, I’ll check it 15 mins later it’ll be 7.2 say, then again 15 mins later it’ll be 6.3 and this freaks me out as I assume I’m going to go hypo, so to avoid doing that I just have to eat carbs or whatever’s around me to get it up again! I know this is my fault, but I don’t wanna be this way anymore, I’ve spoken to my diabetes team and I just feel like I’m not getting much help, they tell me to TRY, keep my blood at a certain level so I get used to it but I physically can’t. And that’s my other problem, I think if my sugars were a stable level all the time I wouldn’t have a problem, but because they’re not and they just do whatever they want that’s what panics me! Has anyone else had this!? Can anyone give me advice on what to do!!!! I need serious help, doesn’t help I suffer with health anxiety either so I think this contributes to it as I’m petrified of dying or there being something wrong with me!!!! I hope someone’s out there who understand!
Thankyou!!!
I’ve been diabetic for 20 years, I was diagnosed at around 4/5 years old and I’m now 25.
All easy well and good when I was younger and I had great control, but when I was around 10/11 I had a bad episode of low blood sugar level, I remember it being 2.4 so did the usual had some carbs, checked it again 2.1, had more carbs, a little while later checked it again and it registered as LO on my machine. Full on panic mode after me and my mum had just been pumping all the carbs we could find into me. I thought that was it and I was going to die. Anyway long story short after a while we managed to get it back up thank god, but since then I’ve had really bad anxiety about my blood sugars! So I’ve always kept them higher than what they should be. I’ve been this way ever since, apart from when I was pregnant 2 years ago and the diabetes team put me on a strict routine, with my HBA1C being 14+ after a month we managed to get it down to 7.6, for me this was a massive achievement, and I was hoping I was going to be able to keep it up after my pregnant, but no, I climbed back into my same old ways and my anxiety took over me, because of this I feel hypo in around anything below 9.4 sometimes I can manage lower, I’m really strugglinh because I want to get it back on track and for me to live a normal life with normal sugars again but my anxiety takes over so much that I cave in! Obviously this isn’t good for me in the long run, I know that more than anyone, and I WANT to get it under control, I don’t want it to control me, I’ll find I’ll have days where I’m ready to do it and get it under control but I notice when my bloods say around 8ish, I’ll check it 15 mins later it’ll be 7.2 say, then again 15 mins later it’ll be 6.3 and this freaks me out as I assume I’m going to go hypo, so to avoid doing that I just have to eat carbs or whatever’s around me to get it up again! I know this is my fault, but I don’t wanna be this way anymore, I’ve spoken to my diabetes team and I just feel like I’m not getting much help, they tell me to TRY, keep my blood at a certain level so I get used to it but I physically can’t. And that’s my other problem, I think if my sugars were a stable level all the time I wouldn’t have a problem, but because they’re not and they just do whatever they want that’s what panics me! Has anyone else had this!? Can anyone give me advice on what to do!!!! I need serious help, doesn’t help I suffer with health anxiety either so I think this contributes to it as I’m petrified of dying or there being something wrong with me!!!! I hope someone’s out there who understand!
Thankyou!!!
