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Message: <blockquote data-quote="gennepher" data-source="post: 2254168" data-attributes="member: 238814">My painting for my daily painting challenge today.I didn't want to do a pastel painting today...I have been missing creating on the digital SketchClubApp...This has taken me a few hours. I can disappear into another world with doing this...disappear into the imagination in my head where another dimension takes place...My head has been working towards this all day...how do I explain...not easy in words - there is a smoothness that's leads into inner dimensions which are always there as a construct of alternate parallel dimensions which can bleed into other dimensions...I see this all the time, always have done, and I assume it began because I was  a profoundly deaf child with no hearing or understanding of people or the world that the majority are part of...When I had the cochlear implant, I was an experiment because this hospital  had not done an older person who had been profoundly deaf from birth, and they were not sure if my neural pathways for speech had atrophied. Although there was talk of neural plasticity. So this was a gamble...It is not like you are operated on and you flick a switch to turn you on and you can hear words and everything. That might be a possibility if you were hearing all your life before you became deaf.So yes the operation worked in that sound now comes through, but even 12 years later I am still learning what sound is and what speech is...It was quite some time later before I realised why I was having severe problems with my creativity, that is my writing, my poetry, my artwork.All these years from birth, my creativity had hijacked those unused neural pathways that been assigned for the purpose of hearing. There was obviously no sound input during the act of creativity all these years.So, just before I am 60 years old I get 'hearing' via the cochlear implant. It has been like since there has been a constant internal battle with those neural pathways. Because the hearing now wants those neural pathways back. I have been battling with this creative aspect of me, which felt completely destroyed initially with the cochlear implant, and I had no idea this was going to happen. It is impossible to describe my up and down journey in this the last few years on here.Today has been a day where I can get back into fully what I was, when I had no hearing input. Yet I have been wearing my speech processor today, so I have had hearing input today. It is like I can enter it all. I might not have this tomorrow, but I am enjoying today while it is here...that disappearing into another world is important to me and brings me calm and peace...Here is the painting done in the SketchClubApp It might not look so clear on a small phone screen...[ATTACH=full]40767[/ATTACH]</blockquote>

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