I've had diabetes since the 26th may 2010, at first the doctors had basically managed to scared me into controlling my diabetes. I was really committed at first and I taught my friends and family what I had to do and they all accepted it. It was only a couple of months down the line that I started to realise how much of a big impact diabetes has on my life and I feel like it controls me! I can't be who I want to be or be like everyone else because of it. Even though all my friends accept it I don't! I've just turned 17 and i like drinking with my friends and having a good time but I'm fed up of people worrying about me! My parents and friends constantly reminding me to do my injections. I'm always upset and cry all the time because of my diabetes but I feel as if I have no one to speak to, my friends try and help but it's so hard for them to understand how it feels! I'm so embarrassed of my diabetes that I hide it from everyone. My parents got off my back about my diabetes about after a year because they thought it was under control but in fact it's the opposite. I haven't tested my blood in about a year and I often miss injections because I'm too embarrassed or don't have the time. I hide the letters from the hospital because I get angry and annoyed when I have a doctor who has no idea what it's like to live with diabetes tell me how to live. All my diabetes has ever done is make my life difficult and make me miss out on things! It's the worst thing that's ever happened to me and I always wonder why it was me?! I can't control it and I don't think I ever will be able to. I'm fed up of crying and being upset and hiding everything from everyone. Sometimes I even forget I'm diabetic and that's the best feeling ever. I have no one to talk to and feel like no one will take me serious because of my age. I wish everything could be different, I wish I could be like everyone else, I wish my diabetes would just go away, I wish people would understand, I wish it wasn't me! But looks like none of that will ever happen! Because it is me and I have diabetes and I just have to accept the fact that it's always going to have control over my life! If anyone feels the same or wants to chat I'm more than willing! Would be nice to speak to someone my age!