I've been diagnosed for 2 years now, and I have never had any control over my diabetes, I was diagnosed when I was just turning 19 years old, (I don't know if that's relevant for this post). I don't test (Don't have a go at me for it), I barely inject, I now have a kidney infection and on strong antibiotics. My mental health has been bad for the past 2 years, worse since being diagnosed. I don't know if there is something wrong with me, or my brain, but when people tell me I have to "look after myself", "inject", "test my sugars", I don't listen, I want to look after myself, don't get me wrong there, but I don't know if its because 1) my mental health is worse than before, 2) I was too set in my ways when I was diagnosed and I don't want to change, or 3) I'm just stupid?
Everyone else seems to either be managing/controlling it better, coping a lot better with diabetes. But I just seem to make my life and diabetes more difficult. I've been crying most of the day, I've been shaking because I am stressed out because I just can't cope with it anymore. I am not getting any support from my diabetes nurses, they just sit there and tell me to test and inject. They don't care for my emotional welbeing. I will soon chuck my diabetes pens, and needles and everything else in the bin and say screw it, cause I really can't do this anymore. I just don't know how much longer I can do this for.
Everyone else seems to either be managing/controlling it better, coping a lot better with diabetes. But I just seem to make my life and diabetes more difficult. I've been crying most of the day, I've been shaking because I am stressed out because I just can't cope with it anymore. I am not getting any support from my diabetes nurses, they just sit there and tell me to test and inject. They don't care for my emotional welbeing. I will soon chuck my diabetes pens, and needles and everything else in the bin and say screw it, cause I really can't do this anymore. I just don't know how much longer I can do this for.