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Hiya. All my life I have struggled with my weight. I feel like my entire life has been one big diet and depressing. I was a size 22 at age 17 and lost a ton of weight when I switched to healthy food. Then even more when I developed type 1. Even then I wasn't slim. During the honeymoon period (2012) of type 1 I got down to a size 12-14. I felt good but since then I'm back up to 16-18. I'm about 5'5" and I weigh 14.5 stone. I look lighter than I am. I've tried everything and I think about how fat I am on a daily basis to almost obsession. I hate myself. The worst part is, I've eaten pretty healthy the last 10 years.
Since Christmas I bought myself a Nutribullet and I've been living off of lentil vegetable soup for main meals. And I drink my smoothies slowly. (I make 750ml of mostly green smoothie and it lasts 3 days). For some odd reason I need about 10-12 units of Novorapid to cover a bowl of my soup even though it only consists of red lentils, carrots, onion and celery and some stock. Now, I have had a cold the last 2 weeks and it's winter which doesn't help. I feel really healthy and my skin is glowing. My work clothes (which have no give whatsoever) feel a little baggier but the scales say the EXACT same! I've barely eaten any bread, rice, pasta or anything. I've been freezing banana slices and eating Alpro soya desserts for a sweet fix and sometimes those Nakd fruit and nut bites but never more than a handful at a time. I'm still on 24-27 units of Lantus and if I'll be honest, my sugars haven't been great. Not super high or anything, but I've seen a lot of 8-11 readings. I have had way less hypos though. Overall I am eating way less carbs than I was last year.
I just want to lose weight and I don't know how much more "clean" I can eat. It's frustrating seeing my friends drop a stone simply by giving up takeaways for 3 weeks or whatever. And here I am struggling. I'm pretty active, my job is 5-6 hours of non stop walking 5 times a week. I seem to gain weight super easy and it's 1000x harder to shift it. I know I should learn to love myself in my own skin, because I am very attractive despite having huge hips, but I just can't like my body at all, especially with the bruises from injections. I should be grateful that I've lost a little weight at least, it's just so slow, and going on the hardcore low carbing cost me so much money last time, and I felt really miserable. I also gained weight. So please don't suggest that.
Since Christmas I bought myself a Nutribullet and I've been living off of lentil vegetable soup for main meals. And I drink my smoothies slowly. (I make 750ml of mostly green smoothie and it lasts 3 days). For some odd reason I need about 10-12 units of Novorapid to cover a bowl of my soup even though it only consists of red lentils, carrots, onion and celery and some stock. Now, I have had a cold the last 2 weeks and it's winter which doesn't help. I feel really healthy and my skin is glowing. My work clothes (which have no give whatsoever) feel a little baggier but the scales say the EXACT same! I've barely eaten any bread, rice, pasta or anything. I've been freezing banana slices and eating Alpro soya desserts for a sweet fix and sometimes those Nakd fruit and nut bites but never more than a handful at a time. I'm still on 24-27 units of Lantus and if I'll be honest, my sugars haven't been great. Not super high or anything, but I've seen a lot of 8-11 readings. I have had way less hypos though. Overall I am eating way less carbs than I was last year.
I just want to lose weight and I don't know how much more "clean" I can eat. It's frustrating seeing my friends drop a stone simply by giving up takeaways for 3 weeks or whatever. And here I am struggling. I'm pretty active, my job is 5-6 hours of non stop walking 5 times a week. I seem to gain weight super easy and it's 1000x harder to shift it. I know I should learn to love myself in my own skin, because I am very attractive despite having huge hips, but I just can't like my body at all, especially with the bruises from injections. I should be grateful that I've lost a little weight at least, it's just so slow, and going on the hardcore low carbing cost me so much money last time, and I felt really miserable. I also gained weight. So please don't suggest that.