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Hi,

I am newly diagnosed as Type 2 (Dec 2008) and have posted once before. I was diagnosed unexpectedly (no symptoms) and as my sugar levels were so high, put straight on to 2 x 500mg of Metformin.

I feel so afraid and worried. My GP and Diabetic nurse are pleased as my weight is reducing and I am taking my medication when I should be. I'm following a low carb diet and my weight loss is slow and steady. I am putting on a brave face at work and at home but feel close to tears most of the time. Everyone seems to be of the opinion that as a 'bright girl' I should just get on with it. I feel like my whole world has been turned upside down. The nurse helpfully asked whether I was down because I was missing cakes etc. As if!!!!

I feel like I'm wallowing just by posting these thoughts really - feeling sorry for myself. My GP even said "It could be worse - it could be cancer". I know she means well but I just don't feel very lucky. I know that I should just be a good girl and get on with it but at 41, I feel like an old lady. I always considered myself to be a bit overweight but in very good health (a stranger to the GP). Clearly not. I can't shake myself out of this.

I have always been an upbeat and optimistic person and I feel like a thoroughly miserable old bag even posting this but hope that I am among friends. Apologies for moaning!

Jules
 
Of course you're among friends,Jules!! I can probably guarantee that there's not one member here that has not felt like you feel at the moment.
In a way your doc. was right,of all things you could have got this is at least controllable with a bit of work.
We all have off-days ,it seems to go with diabetes,come here and moan,we understand and you will not be alone in it either.
 
Jules your not an old lady! I was diagnosed today and i'm 30 lol I'm trying to focus on the fact that it is going to force me to take better care of myself, something I have never really done (ate what i liked, smoked, drank etc) I gave up smoking before Christmas, i'm glad it was my choice, if i had left it then today i'd of had to give up, and i guess that is different!

I'm sure i'm going to have down days, I think today i'm in a bit of shock, even though weirdly I knew it was coming because i've not been very well the past few weeks.

If we all stick together, we'll be fine :)

Chin up!
 
Hi Jules,
I am recently diagnosed type 2 as well. I'm 42 and what I consider to be reasonably active and hardly ever suffered from a cold - so being told you have diabetes can feel like the end of your world as you know it. I'm now on 3 x 500mg metformin. I am being very careful with what I eat though bs levels are all over the place!! Am still so sleepy all the time and feel tearful like you do. I am normally so positive about everything. I know one or two people with T2 diabetes and they assure me that within a couple of months you start feeling great again - so hold on in there and it WILL get better for us.
 
Hi Jules,
You probably won't even realise this but by you posting what you have, it has probably made many others feel 'normal'. By that I mean, many of us recognise your feelings and they are perfectly normal, natural feelings. Admitting we feel down, especially so soon after diagnosis, is something each of us has felt and even though I've had diabetes a few years more than you, every now and then I still get a bit down and beat myself up for not coping,mentally.
I am glad you have found this forum though, as you will feel supported, whether you are up, down or in need of just asking for advice.
It takes time to get your head round the diagnosis you've had but you will get there. Promise.
All the best,
chocoholic.
 
Thanks so much. It does help to know that I'm not on my own and others feel the way that I do too. I think that most friends are family are impressed that I seem to be coping so well even though I feel so awful inside. I have told my GP and nurse and they too feel that things will get better.

It helps to know that there are other friends out there. It's such a shock when you consider yourself to be a fit and healthy person to find that your body has a surprise in store for you.

Thanks again for all your kind words of support.

Jules X
 
If your BGs are uneven at the moment, that could make you feew off colour too. Once you get steady at the right level. ( you WILL) you will start to feel better then you have for months.
 
I think I don't feel too down yet because i've spent years feeling ill, so i think i'm more upbeat about hopefully feeling better.

I know i'll have some off days though
 
My blood glucose readings are very up and down at the moment and I haven't felt really well for some time. I am using my meter regularly, sticking to a low carb diet, exercising and reading as much as I can.

I am determined to get good control as soon as I can and hope to reduce my Metformin dose eventually but I know that it is early days. I hope that once I start to feel well, everything will fall into place.
 
Hi Jules

Welcome to the forum and like the others have already said, it is pefectly normal to feel like you do at the moment.
I know that you are trying very hard to deal with the diagnosis and you are already doing so well, it wont take too long before you will feel better so dont be too hard on yourself, you are most certainly much better than I was after I was first diagnosed.

Read around this forum for some advice, sort it out according to your needs, pick yourself the bits that you think suit you best, get hold of the 2 most recommended books to start you off, Dr Bernstein the Diabetes Solution and Dr Charles Clark Diabetes Revolution, you will find that the more you learn about diabetes the easier it will become and you lose your fear, you will learn that it is possible to be a perfectly healthy diabetic :-)

Ask any questions you may have, listen to your body, dont just deal with your diabetes but look after the whole of you, your mind your body, everything, be good to yourself and remember to reward and treat yourself now and then to something that you really enjoy.

Lots of love

Karen x
 
Hi Jules, your post was me last week!! i think finding out you have diabetes is such a bomb shell and when you think fo the changes you have to make and sacrifices you have to make you go through a grieving process for your old life. I had a row with a friend and cryed and cryed and realised that i wasn't crying about the row, i was crying cos i had diabetes. All the meals out i loved and the cakes at work, the take a ways ect. But, then i saw a challange and a slimmer me for summer. I feel better now and think that good cry did me just that, good.
Chin up love. X

Dee.
 
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