Hi
@AndBreathe. I'll try to answer everything. Yes it was a long ramble but I'm grateful to you for it. Thank you.
I've shared absolutely everything with this forum because half truths or untruths would get me nowhere, as I wouldn't get the correct advice. I'm loving the figures you've given me there because it puts it into perspective for me.
I'm not, to be honest, feeling better apart from in myself because I hate it and want it to go away, which I realise is crackers!
I'd love to go as low as you and I'm going to strive for that. I'm not one to bury my head but yes, I do worry a lot. I do a spreadsheet each month. I don't know if it achieves much and frankly I'm fed up of doing it.
I've written some notes of things I want to ask him on Tuesday next and I know he will answer every single one. He's excellent. I consider myself lucky to have him.
I'm losing weight more slowly now and I suppose that's normal after such a long period of time. I'm happy with my weight now but I avoid carbs like they're a poison. I can't even touch sugar. All guests to my home have to sugar their own drinks. Hahaaa.... mad!
I must become calmer. I know that now but I was so frightened at that result after the muffin that I had to come for help. It doesn't help that my children don't want to know. They're burying their heads. I know them better than they know themselves. They don't not care, they're just scared so I really don't have anywhere to turn other than here. I'll do my best not to panic.
Thank you so much once again for your help and caring. I feel I'm taking a lot from this forum. I'd rather be more of a giver, as I am in 'real' life but I don't know enough yet.
Thank you again