There's nothing silly about this, don't minimise something that's a huge deal to you. If it's crippling, its anything but silly. (And it's not like you're doing it just to be difficult or special... Then it would be silly. But this is real, and it is hard. So. No more of that!) Try to sneak in healthy fats, maybe? Avocado, cheese, nuts... I'm rather partial to (coconut) yoghurt with Purition fibres and chopped nuts in. Not too fatty, but they can keep your bowels moving smoothly and it's filling. Maybe cook with butter, so it's in there but not TOO in noticably there, you know?
You deserve to eat, and you deserve to eat things that make you physically and mentally, feel better. You're worth it. You might not think so, But I do.
HUGS,
Jo