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I read a lot on here reluctant to post tbh but today im feeling bad.
So many of you are courageous in your posts and for a bit as i read them it makes me not feel so alone in this unknown journey.
My situation is probably a little different to others in that my daughter is non verbal has autism and now has t1.
It was always challenging looking after her previous to this new diagnosis but now im really overwhelmed.
Some of you may think that im a little over the top in saying that my job is to keep my girl alive and happy. But its very true in that everything she does needs my care and attention now omg the copious bsls the insulin adjustments adjustments the carb counting has just tipped me over the edge.
She didnt deserve this as did none of you .....i am very hard on myself and always have been a terrible perfectionist with anything i tackle...and this new diagnosis has maxed me out.
im tired frustrated annoyed upset teary and tend to hide these emotions very well from my daughter and family because the “soldier on ” philosophy is how ive been geared to carry on with life.
I hate it tbh...my daughter is no trouble to me in that she NEVER complains and through all her life has shown courage and tenacity and has managed to soldier on too with her mum....She really is my hero u know...
i just dont know how long i can keep this up. i dont want it to beat me but i feel its getting the better of me..
So many of you are courageous in your posts and for a bit as i read them it makes me not feel so alone in this unknown journey.
My situation is probably a little different to others in that my daughter is non verbal has autism and now has t1.
It was always challenging looking after her previous to this new diagnosis but now im really overwhelmed.
Some of you may think that im a little over the top in saying that my job is to keep my girl alive and happy. But its very true in that everything she does needs my care and attention now omg the copious bsls the insulin adjustments adjustments the carb counting has just tipped me over the edge.
She didnt deserve this as did none of you .....i am very hard on myself and always have been a terrible perfectionist with anything i tackle...and this new diagnosis has maxed me out.
im tired frustrated annoyed upset teary and tend to hide these emotions very well from my daughter and family because the “soldier on ” philosophy is how ive been geared to carry on with life.
I hate it tbh...my daughter is no trouble to me in that she NEVER complains and through all her life has shown courage and tenacity and has managed to soldier on too with her mum....She really is my hero u know...
i just dont know how long i can keep this up. i dont want it to beat me but i feel its getting the better of me..