Looking for some positives

[H.floodgate]

Hi all,

Hope your all doing well?

I'm really struggling at the moment with my diabetes.
I was diagnosed August 2018 at 28 and so far have just kind of got on with it.
Recently I've found I just don't care, Im having some dark thoughts and one more than one occasion considered just giving up.

I have now decided to try and find the positive in life again and could really do with anyones positive stories/if anyone else has felt like this and how you got through it.

Thanks

 

[JoKalsbeek]

I'm depressed by default, having a clinical depression, so I've never suffered diabetic burn out like you currently are, by the sound of it... But I have on a few occasions tried to end it (unsuccesfully, obviously), and have dark thoughts creep up regularly. And then I do mean at least once a day. Thing is.... Try to see good things. Not big ones, small ones. Gotta start somewhere. For me it can be running into a cat I don't know who'll let me pet him, for instance. And when I'm out and about with my camera, I'm more aware of my surroundings, so I do notice more. Like a pizza baker with a bunch of geese in front of his shop, who know where to go, because he feeds them every day. When you see the kindness of others, it makes the world a little less dark. See what you can do to make the world a little better, (or more specifically, YOUR world) so you can actually see you being around does make a difference. This place is better with you in it, if you'll just open your eyes to it.

Being a diabetic is hard. I don't know what type you are, I'm a T2 myself, but it's a rough deal whatever way you turn it. (Not saying 1 and 2 are equals, they're just... Hard, each in their own way.). It helps if you don't have to deal with it alone though. This place has a lot of people who've been exactly where you are. They hear you, take you seriously, and may have some advice that's better than mine.

Also... Depression is a condition. Just like diabetes. There's treatment for it. I sadly have to make do without antidepressants due to the side effects, but while it lasted, amitriptyline was absolutely fab, the only one that ever pushed the clouds away and let in some sunshine. I'd still be on the stuff if I could be. There's no shame in asking for a little help when you're down, you know.

Take it from someone who's used to dwelling in the dark.... There's light out there, and it is worth it to stick around.

*HUGS*
Jo

 

[michita]

For me the diagnosis was a shock but overall now after over 3 years I feel it had a positive impact in my life. Previously I didn’t care much about my health and just taken my health for granted. Now I really can appreciate what I have in terms of being healthy and diabetes has given me an incentive to want to be the healthiest I can be. It’s a bit like a revenge. So I try to eat healthy and go to the gym.

I hope you can find a way out of your struggles.

 

[H.floodgate]

Thank you both.
It's good to hear I'm not alone and other people have experienced these emotions on some level.

 

[Energize]

Hi @H.floodgate
As @JoKalsbeek , I also suffer with clinical depression but, fortunately, I am able to take antidepressants and tolerate the side effects, including significant dietry restrictions imposed because of the type of antidepressants.

However, in spite of medication, I do still have periods of being very low, as recently, and sometimes 'fall of the wagon', which I have recently and had binges on bread, croisants, chocolate etc. I'm now trying to kerb the urges (reactivated by renewing my memory/body of the tastes)

So, yes, you're definitely not alone.

It may be worthwhile seeing your GP, explaining exactly how you are feeling. Maybe you would find antidepressants / councelling helpful to get over how you are currently feeling? There's no shame; it's a normal reaction to situations like this and there are things that can help you get through this.

Life can be a bummer at times, eh? {{{Hugs}}}