Feeling sorry for myself...

[TonyTruthful]

Lol I’m feeling sorry for myself again….

I just can’t get the hang of it. My hab1c has slipped again to 9.8% which was a little annoying, its gone 7, 8 and now 9.8 and I haven’t really done anything different.

My consultant won’t let me have ago on the pump because I haven’t proved myself….***.

I think I have been in denial about the condition but I still try my best and never skip insulin. I hate everything associated with the disease, the word diabetes makes me cringe it just sounds a bit pathetic if you know what I mean and it really embarrasses me. I am that vicious circle diagram that’s on this site. It makes me sad because I know it’s only me that can change things but I just can’t help myself. I have always had an addictive personality and this disease is making me self-destruct. Even trying to deny I have it gets on my nerves!

Testing makes me depressed and I can get really angry to the point where I can be pretty reckless and aggressive.

How long did it take you to accept it?

Peace out guys x

 

[Robinredbreast]

Peace to you tony. Sorry that you are having such a rough time . Somrimes I feel angry about the diabetes and the things that come with it, that's what I find difficult , its just one medical condition after another.

I accepted my type 1 straight away just got on with it, my ex husband left 8 months before being diagnosed and I had two children to look after as well.

Since having my recent eye op I have been findng it a bit difficult but I still plough on and like so many others trying to make sure I have good to reasonable control.

I wish you all the best but try not to be too hard. On yourself. Its an upward struggle at times with testiing injections hypos hypers work homelife children. I've been type 1 for 24 years.
Have a word with your GP or DSN for advice on managing your diabetes.

I hope you start to feel more positive very soon.

Take care

RRB

 

[Seriously_Sax1989]

Hi Tony I've had it for 18 years and still don't think I've truly accepted it fully. You're definitely not alone with this one! I've recently moved onto the basal/bolus regime and my levels have and still are all over the place! The Drs split my levemir last week in the hope I would have better control as my levels were seriously high in the morning but now since changing, it seems they are high all day except around 4pm when I'm hypo!

Sometimes I feel like giving up too and go into self destruct mode but I'm hopeful that I'll get the hang of it all eventually... Takes a load of perseverance and determination!! Hope you feel better soon with it!


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[Hellbunny]

I'm a couple of years down the line now and i still have days where i think to he*l with it, but at the same time no-one else can change things or make it better, so ultimately its down to us to deal with it the best we can. Have you tried starting with your background and seeing if thats causing the highs? Because if the basal isn't right then it will give inaccurate post meals/pre meal readings. Sorry if im rambling its late and i've not been to bed Lol.

 

[Seriously_Sax1989]

No I haven't adjusted that as I've only been using the regime for a month so am waiting to see my specialist on Tuesday! I think it's got to be the basal causing the problems as well! Thanks.


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