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- Type of diabetes
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- Diet only
Hello fellow diabetics. I seriously want your help as I'm struggling in my life. Basicly, I'm a 21 years old type 1 diabetic(I've been a diabetic for 10 years) and I'm struggling with life in general. Everything seems to be related to my body and the way its built. I'm 21 years old and I look like a 14 years old boy, I'm about 5'6" (about 1.68m) and weight 121 pounds(55kg) and I'm really skinny. I've always been bullied by people in school and I hated myself for it. I didn't want to get over it. Changing my attitude wasn't enough, as I was still treated as a joke. What's even more bothering is that even fresh high school kids would laugh at me. It's kinda easy to understand: I'm not that intimidating! I seriously hate that nobody takes me serious and treats me as a kid, even though I might want to give my opinion on a certain subject, but they always think I'm too young. What I want to do is try to gain weight, something which seemed to be impossible for me all life. I'm thinking about eating more, thus I would need more insulin(I'm having 4 shots a day). There is no other way to build my self confidence but by bulking up. I'd really wanna go to the gym. I know we're not experts here but I'd like to hear some facts/opinions/help regarding this subject. I have mild diabetes complications, my diabetes is really unstable, highs and lows all the time and feeling dizzy. Besides this, I'm having myophia(my doctor said that because of this I can't develop retinopathy, not sure if true) but he said that I'm not allowed to lift anything heavy for the rest of my life. This sounded like a real hit for me, I've never felt so down before. What I want to believe is that my doctor is not the best doctor alive, if I could get my eye tension fixed I could try lifting weights. I'm not talking about heavy ones, but starting from the bottom. Sorry if I missed any details