Well it has been 6 months since I was diagnosed... A1C went from 13.6% to 6.2% with very few hypos (I am in Canada so we use the old system still). My diabetic educator is thrilled and very happy with my control.
I read everything I could when first diagnosed and still read. From Bernstein I took the law of small numbers but am not as hard core as he is with low carbs and try to "think like a pancreas".
Over all it is going ok but I find I am angry and frustrated. The A1C is a nice accomplishment and I feel good when I hear it but then realize that it isn't like once you hit the target that that is it... That it all has to keep going. I went to see a therapist and told her I get frustrated at being angry because most say it could be worse, you could have had cancer but this can be managed. I feel guilty for being angry. She shared her story about cancer in which she had a bone marrow transplant and said while it was horrible that now, other than regular. He is she is fine... That while cancer can be horrible it isn't something that you need to manage 24/7 to live for the rest of your life. That I should allow myself to be angry and that it is ok to feel it and process it.
My question for everyone is how did you process your anger? What do you do when it comes back?
I thought I had done the anger phase when I went through dealing with the questions and comments from friends and family saying things like: I couldn't give myself needles, to awe those are so small I don't understand your fear of them, to why do you inject so many times, to the best one... Are you off the insulin yet? Evidently that was just my anger at others not at diabetes and my pancreas.
I read everything I could when first diagnosed and still read. From Bernstein I took the law of small numbers but am not as hard core as he is with low carbs and try to "think like a pancreas".
Over all it is going ok but I find I am angry and frustrated. The A1C is a nice accomplishment and I feel good when I hear it but then realize that it isn't like once you hit the target that that is it... That it all has to keep going. I went to see a therapist and told her I get frustrated at being angry because most say it could be worse, you could have had cancer but this can be managed. I feel guilty for being angry. She shared her story about cancer in which she had a bone marrow transplant and said while it was horrible that now, other than regular. He is she is fine... That while cancer can be horrible it isn't something that you need to manage 24/7 to live for the rest of your life. That I should allow myself to be angry and that it is ok to feel it and process it.
My question for everyone is how did you process your anger? What do you do when it comes back?
I thought I had done the anger phase when I went through dealing with the questions and comments from friends and family saying things like: I couldn't give myself needles, to awe those are so small I don't understand your fear of them, to why do you inject so many times, to the best one... Are you off the insulin yet? Evidently that was just my anger at others not at diabetes and my pancreas.
). But honestly, I suppose it depends on personality a lot. There are lots of things that make me mad but diabetes isn't one of them anymore, and neither are all the dumb things people say about it (which seems to bug some people). I find lots of things about it quite funny - especially dumb things other people say, in fact. But I was mad when I was young. So I am proof you get over the anger.
