Hi
@dusky. I'm sorry to hear of your bad life experiences. I'm 68 soon and T2. I have experienced depression too for most of my life. I saw on my online medical records that I was diagnosed with depression at 14, though I wasn't told or given any treatment.
In my case I think it is genetic. I believe my father was probably bi-polar but never diagnosed as he wouldn't seek medical help due to the stigma of mental health for his generation. My sister has been diagnosed as bi-polar, and her son and two of my brothers took their own lives.
I asked for a consultation with psychiatric consultants as I thought I might be bi-polar, but they thought I have cyclothymia which is a sub-set of bi-polar disorder, but not so severe.
It means I used to have cycles of depression, stability and being 'high'. The episodes of depression were years apart at first. 10 years from my first at 33, then 7 years, then 5 years, then 3 years, and latterly just months apart.
I have been prescribed different anti-depressants over the years, first Bolvidon, then Dothiapin, and now Fluoxetine (Prozac).
The Fluoxetine does work for me, and I have decided to stay on it permanently. Some people find it doesn't help and then try other ant-depressants. Some ADs work for some people but not others. Some find it can have side effects, I didn't apart from increased anxiety for the first 2-3 weeks.
Like most ADs it does take time to build up in the body before it starts to take effect, usually around 6 weeks. I have stayed on it for 3 years now, and don't have any noticeable side effects. I have read that for some people it can start to be ineffective if taken for a long period of time. But not for me yet. If it did I would have to increase the dosage (I'm on the minimum dose now), or switch to another med.
Anyway, I hope that helps. If there is anything else you want to know, just ask.