Hiya Wally, are you getting any support for your alcoholism ?
Until you start getting some support for this you are going to keep finding yourself back in the same place - ok you have admitted your problem but are you willing to deal with it ?
I wouldn't wish either on anyone but having once dated an alcoholic I know how self destructive this is in itself, no one can help you but youself, your desire has to be strong enough to stop this.