Glad you enjoyed your meal and found some good choices. I’ve had some of the feelings you mentioned - so honestly - but this has changed a bit with time. Occasionally, circumstances may trigger them - I think it’s when I feel a bit vulnerable and fearful about not getting my needs met. But I mention I have had a diagnosis of prediabetes and that it’s probably coming to a lot of people - I just happen to be one of the early adopters of a needed low carb diet!!
I’ve heard it said that anger sometimes is the layer on top of another emotion - with me it’s usually sadness. I’m not someone who gets angry or cries a lot most of the time. But when I got the diagnosis of prediabetes I was like a raving harpie with PMT mood swings for 48 hours! I agree with the ‘grief’ focus - it’s painful to look at what’s ahead and know that this is your life now.
For me, the pain was in knowing what I’d have to give up, as I had become accustomed to thinking I was fine with eating chips, crisps, chocolate, ice cream, cakes, pastries, pies, sausage rolls - the list goes on! And I’d been ill with gallbladder disease 4 years before where I’d had to avoid most of those things due to fat content.
I was enjoying being able to eat freely, only to then discover no, I couldn’t - not unless I wanted to feel ill and suffer the consequences of full blown type 2 diabetes!
But I was already feeling quite unwell even with only prediabetes (I later discovered I had a cataract which was not helping matters). I had a frozen shoulder, which seems to be a risk factor for diabetics due to chromium deficiency. That led to treatment with a chiropractor, who enlightened me to the possible outcome of untreated diabetes (nerve damage, blindness, limb loss etc). It was the shock I needed to start me feeling grateful that I had a chance to do something to reverse this trend (which I gather type 2s can do as well as prediabetics).
So, I get the anger response - and any other difficult feelings. They tend to trouble me less now that I’ve weaned myself away from so much sugar. But I sometimes panic if I know I’m going away and going to faced with very limited food options.
Bills menu is not too bad, in my experience. The sausage snack makes a good starter if you ask them to omit the honey in the sauce - just have mustard (or not much of the sauce!) I have the baked burger with an added avocado topping. It does come with a little salad but you could ask for the broccoli side instead (which I sometimes add if I’m very hungry). My husband asks to swap the sweet potato fries for normal fries for 50p extra (!) with his steak. I usually nick a few of those, with some mayo!
I do miss puddings sometimes. And I’m sensitive to caffeine. They do a really nice decaf coffee in Bill’s - with one of those I don’t then feel deprived whilst hub has his pud