I've just had enough, can't cope with it. It's just been all too much for me these last few weeks as my dog got diagnosed with diabetes and two weeks ago had to put him down due to complications. It's really hit me hard and I just give up, I can't get my blood sugar down, I feel worthless and I've given up on taking insulin as it's just making me gain weight alot and eating fat is not doing me any favours as I feel tired and sick even if I eat a small amount and just last week.
I have a wee Scottie who was diagnosed as a T1 recently. They also suspect my other Scottie (her brother) is diabetic as well, though when I've tested his urine, it's negative. (I'm watching, though.)
I know it's hard. I think we've all been there, where we seem to do everything right (for both ourselves and our pet) and nothing goes right. My health provider has "uncontrolled T1" on the front of my chart because of the way my sugars bounce around, even though I've been T1 for 48 years.
I do my best. I try really hard not to lie to myself about what/how much I eat. I eat mostly protein. My last A1C was 6.7, which for me is fantastic. Then I got to the doctor and they say it should be at most 6.6.
I decided long ago that I would do my best at being a diabetic, but it wasn't all that I am. Let the medicos judge me; I am doing the best I can. I have to have a life, and though it's a diabetic life, it's ME that has to live it!
I ache for you when I hear you say "I give up." I know how devastating it is to lose your pet to your disease (I had to do that as well), but please don't quit. Stay with us; we need you.
The road may be long and rough, but we'll walk it together and maybe we can make it together.