I think everyone posting on this thread is well meaning and considerate to have given their time.
I think, however, its pretty obvious that the only person that can help someone like Akindrat is Akindrat. He has had lots of advice, support, recommendations and suggestions made on this thread and he seems to have followed none of them. As we have established that he spends a lot of time on this forum he must know the health problems he will experience if he carries on down the road he is travelling but its pretty obviousl that he will carry on just the same until he decides otherwise. If he ever does.
Yes, it is frustrating for most of us because we want to get our bg under control and don't understand why someone would want to carry on feeling awful the way Akindrat is with the real potential of losing his eyesight, having bits of him chopped off or even developing heart problems. I'm sure you've all heard of 'death by cop' well I think this is a real case of 'death by chocolate'. Its something he's chosing to do. Nobody is forcing him to eat the wrong things. Well, sorry, he needs to get a grip - either accept that he's doing this to himself and stop asking for advice or do what the rest of us have done, change our diet and give up the stuff causing all the problems.
I don't think a health professional or counsellor would be much help to him if he isn't telling them what he is actually doing. I suspect they already know, though, they aren't daft which is why he isn't getting prioritised for talking therapy or any other kind of medical assistance. Like us they know that bg doesn't just shoot up extremely high unless something happens to provoke it.
To be fair to
@akindrat18 , I doubt he's toddling downstairs at 2am thinking I'm going to stuff every carb I can find in my mouth and sod it all. If he's anything like I was when I was deeply gripped by my anorexia, I used to have lovely food at home, I would even prepare it, but just
could not make myself eat it. I am a highly intelligent, highly qualified woman who was working in a clinical medical environment at the time, so I knew what was happening to me. I knew there was a potential for the worst outcome. But, I again, I just
could not make myself eat. Until I had something happen that made me seek truthful help, then more importantly the incidents I talk about earlier in this thread, I couldn't find a way of changing my life.
It is a highly, highly complex situation. Any addiction (whether it be eating, not eating, drinking, gambling or drugs) is highly personal to the sufferer and until
their time is right for
them, little will happen to break the cycle. The difficult we have with food (too much or too little, it's irrelevant) is that we do need to take nourishment, unlike, say gambling where life goes on without using slot machines or betting on horses. Treating something requiring moderation is a real challenge. Treating something requiring abstinence is still very ,much a challenge; I'm not belittling that challenge at all, but it can be dealt with by complete abstinence.
I remain a very driven, strong, determined, stubborn (some would say cussed) personality, but to this day, I am mindful of not allowing behaviours to become too obsessive. There are still times when I have to give myself a bit of a talking to, but, as with life in general, it's a work in progress.
So, nothing changes in akindrat needing to dig very deep to find his reason to change, but I do think I need to acknowledge some of the thoughts probably screaming at top pitch in his brain when he reads this thread. I don't believe he is enjoying life much at all at the moment, but just hasn't found the compelling enough reason to change, yet.
