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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
I am so fed up. Every special occasion. Every 'enjoyable' time. There it is. Ruining everything.
My pump set failed at 12pm on Christmas Day so I had to sit and watch all the normal people enjoying Christmas lunch with a blood sugar of 18, feeling ill, and I couldn't eat anything. One piece of toast I had on Christmas Day to eat and that was all. I know it's not the end of the world but it just spoils everything. I can't plan anything in case it's a day my blood sugars aren't behaving. I can't go out for meals. I can't go on holiday. I can't sleep more than two hours in a stretch as I have to get up to check my blood sugar. And after all that my a1c remains mediocre at 46. What is the point?! I may as well give up.
It's not like I can think in six months it'll be better. In a year. Two years. Because it won't ever be better, this is how it'll be for the rest of my life.
I don't understand how people with t1 say they can do everything other people do or how t1 fits in with them. Mine dominates my life every second of the day and night.
My pump set failed at 12pm on Christmas Day so I had to sit and watch all the normal people enjoying Christmas lunch with a blood sugar of 18, feeling ill, and I couldn't eat anything. One piece of toast I had on Christmas Day to eat and that was all. I know it's not the end of the world but it just spoils everything. I can't plan anything in case it's a day my blood sugars aren't behaving. I can't go out for meals. I can't go on holiday. I can't sleep more than two hours in a stretch as I have to get up to check my blood sugar. And after all that my a1c remains mediocre at 46. What is the point?! I may as well give up.
It's not like I can think in six months it'll be better. In a year. Two years. Because it won't ever be better, this is how it'll be for the rest of my life.
I don't understand how people with t1 say they can do everything other people do or how t1 fits in with them. Mine dominates my life every second of the day and night.