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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
I was diagnosed Type 1 just under a year ago, a large portion of time I've been in honeymoon. I still am in honeymoon but it's starting to end (reporting significantly higher blood sugars now). I'm 35 & I'm fed up.
I underestimate my insulin requirements often (all this time honeymooning is the culprit) so if I eat, I feel ill. If it's a warm day I feel ill. I have zero energy most days. I can't be bothered to do anything and I'm finding it hard to just be myself & maintain existing relationships. I feel like a weak, frustrated, angry waste of a life.
I also have Buerger's disease (diagnosed about 3 years ago) so my mobility is severely affected.
I know that part of this is depression but I've suffered depression for years anyway & tablets aren't going to help. The counseling they have offered me is nothing short of useless. I don't drink alcohol, I do smoke heavily which I know I shouldn't but if I were to quit now I'd probably lose all control. Not one person understands exactly how I'm feeling (which again is likely my fault because I'm a closed book around people).
Some days I feel like just injecting all my insulin & never waking up.
I underestimate my insulin requirements often (all this time honeymooning is the culprit) so if I eat, I feel ill. If it's a warm day I feel ill. I have zero energy most days. I can't be bothered to do anything and I'm finding it hard to just be myself & maintain existing relationships. I feel like a weak, frustrated, angry waste of a life.
I also have Buerger's disease (diagnosed about 3 years ago) so my mobility is severely affected.
I know that part of this is depression but I've suffered depression for years anyway & tablets aren't going to help. The counseling they have offered me is nothing short of useless. I don't drink alcohol, I do smoke heavily which I know I shouldn't but if I were to quit now I'd probably lose all control. Not one person understands exactly how I'm feeling (which again is likely my fault because I'm a closed book around people).
Some days I feel like just injecting all my insulin & never waking up.