Hey everyone, My name is Hilmar I am Icelandic 33yo and I was diagnosed a month ago with D2.
I am just so sad that this is where I am at and I know I am lucky in many ways. I know a lot of people have it way worse but I feel like I have nowhere to share this.
I inject myself with Insulin now both Insulatard 1x and Novorapid 4 x a day if need be. And it always seems to be necessary. I feel constant guilt and shame about anything I consume. I feel better in some ways now after I got the Insulin but also I feel very strange and my mood is so unstable. I normally never lose control of my emotions or get angry but I feel like I am constantly having to put out fires that I caused with both friends/family and or just strangers that I am rude to because everything seems so hard now. I have no patience and I am very quick to feel like it's me against the world.
I do blame myself a lot because I should have been taking much better care of myself for many years and I have become overweight now. It's a strange thing as I felt I was doing "right" after quitting drinking alcohol over 5 years ago. But I quickly just replaced wine with sugar drinks in the evenings.
Evenings and nights are hell for me and I just can't stop thinking about food or sugar. I feel like I should be stronger and thank God for having a beautiful life. But I also feel like I can't do anything that makes me feel good or happy. The more I read the more depressed I get and I am just really struggling with this. Also, I feel like my BS is all over the place and I feel scared all the time if I am doing something wrong. I find it so hard to get motivated to exercise and just want to sleep or be in bed all day. I have cut out all sugar and I count my carbs. It's just a very sad life. Has anyone been here? Any pointers?
I'm new too this, last week - I'm finding staying in carb constraints hard, I'm used to savoury meals more than sweet stuff but portions the issue before without realising how excess it all was.
Now I'm NDH pre diabetes but on 2g glucophage a day.
Got a meter today, had lunch 4 chicken legs 4.5g carbs, 2 granary slices bread and a cappacino coffee with 2sweeters ( and 1.5 hours later I was 8.1) now I am on week 2 of oral steroids for asthma.
I suffer depression and would like to help say and make you believe "we can do this"
We have all these wonderful helpers, supporters with lots of knowledge.
Ok have a bad day but make that a promise that tomorrow will be a good day!
Try not to be scared, put all that scared energy in to a fight, with yourself where you shake yourself and say, " I'm stronger than I look, I'm stronger than I feel - now roar at yourself loudly (till the embarrassment makes you giggle!!
Ask someone on here if sugar free jelly is ok or sugar free water on ice that's fizzy or I drink freshly squeezed lemon in water - all the little bits get rid of my major melt downs - even cleaning your teeth because how awful stuff tastes when your mouth is just tingling with toothpaste. Draw or paint a success stamp in a book and write why you did that
This may be too basic and I'm spouting nonsense being new - just wanted to show support to you and boost you up ✍start writing down emergency tactics to go to like safe recipes, safe drinks (sugar free jelly ice cubes to suck keep your chin up high Strength especially in numbers (here)