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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Pump
I just need to vent somewhere where other people will understand. I've worried my family by talking about how bad I feel, because they don't understand and think it's more serious than it is, which has made it even worse.
I have had type 1 for 15 years but finally went on to a pump a week ago. Because none of the settings are right my control has gone out of the window. My average BG for the week has been 12.2, and since I usually have quite good control I'm feeling awful. I have an almost constant stomach ache (one of my main hyper symptoms) plus slight nausea. This has been pretty much constant for the week.
I was talking to my DSN every day but of course she isn't there at weekends, so I've had nobody to talk to since Friday morning. None of my corrective doses are working... BG 13.4, take six units, test after 90 minutes and it's still 13.4. Take another six units because I'm sick of feeling sick, test again, ... 12.8. My corrective doses have worked since I did DAFNE seven years ago and to suddenly find that they aren't making the slightest difference is really frustrating because I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND! There are so many settings to change on the pump that I'm having a massive crisis of confidence.
It finally caught up with me an hour ago and I came downstairs to have a cry on my own, in the dark. But my husband heard me and came down to ask what's wrong, followed by my mum (she's disabled and lives with us) and when I sobbed that I'm tired of feeling ill, she panicked and called 111. So then I had to convince them that I don't need to see a doctor urgently, and I'm okay. Now I feel bad for making my family feel bad, bad for wasting the NHS people's time, and bad for feeling bad!
On top of that I really don't think I should go to work tomorrow or I will end up bursting into tears at my desk, but taking sick days always makes me feel massively guilty no matter how sick I am. I feel like I need a holiday from diabetes.
I just needed to get that off my chest
I have had type 1 for 15 years but finally went on to a pump a week ago. Because none of the settings are right my control has gone out of the window. My average BG for the week has been 12.2, and since I usually have quite good control I'm feeling awful. I have an almost constant stomach ache (one of my main hyper symptoms) plus slight nausea. This has been pretty much constant for the week.
I was talking to my DSN every day but of course she isn't there at weekends, so I've had nobody to talk to since Friday morning. None of my corrective doses are working... BG 13.4, take six units, test after 90 minutes and it's still 13.4. Take another six units because I'm sick of feeling sick, test again, ... 12.8. My corrective doses have worked since I did DAFNE seven years ago and to suddenly find that they aren't making the slightest difference is really frustrating because I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND! There are so many settings to change on the pump that I'm having a massive crisis of confidence.
It finally caught up with me an hour ago and I came downstairs to have a cry on my own, in the dark. But my husband heard me and came down to ask what's wrong, followed by my mum (she's disabled and lives with us) and when I sobbed that I'm tired of feeling ill, she panicked and called 111. So then I had to convince them that I don't need to see a doctor urgently, and I'm okay. Now I feel bad for making my family feel bad, bad for wasting the NHS people's time, and bad for feeling bad!
On top of that I really don't think I should go to work tomorrow or I will end up bursting into tears at my desk, but taking sick days always makes me feel massively guilty no matter how sick I am. I feel like I need a holiday from diabetes.
I just needed to get that off my chest