I’ll apologise first for the long post. I was diagnosed almost 6 months ago with HbA1c of 120. My GP sent me away with no information other than this was mild and not reversible. I was devastated by this as my only symptom was being tired and I thought it was long Covid. He told me to come back to him in a month and make an appointment with the practise diabetic nurse but I was not able to get in for over a month. By the time I wrnt back to see him the only information I had was from reading online. I was scared, confused and felt very ashamed of myself because it all pointed to me being fat. I told him all of this and he just shrugged. He had Etsy open on his screen and may have well stuck 2 fingers up at me and said go away, get lost, I’m not interested in you. On top of this he prescribed 1 metaformin at the first consultation and did not review it. After lots of reading I chased this up myself and it was increased to 3 per day. This has all had a huge detrimental affect on my mental health and, amongst other things, triggered some PTSD from a previous medical negligence. Every time I go to the doctors I get upset so this is all they focus on and I still have no information from them about diabetes. I still feel upset, ashamed and angry with myself for letting myself get to this and am getting upset just writing this. Other than a couple of close friends I’ve been unable to share my diagnosis because of the shame I feel and don’t want to be judged. People close to me have previously described others with diabetes as greedy, lazy and not surprised they have problems when they weigh so much. I have eventually told my family as I’m about to go into hospital for surgery related to the previous negligence so more stress. Despite all of this I have got my HbA1c to 50 and lost 26% of my body weight but still feel so low. I’m struggling and feel like I won’t ever have a ‘normal’ life again.