When eventually diagnosed and had tried every diet except the one that really actually works!
I was horrified and amazed!
I tried to think that having a really healthy appetite as I have, I would and couldn't live on rabbit food for the rest of my life!
There was in my psyche, for some reason, that I had to live without the poisonous baddies that were making me so ill! I had the feeling that the world was against me and why couldn't I be normal! Why me?
Even worse was the thought that I had to eat 6, 7 or even 8 small meals a day!
How in hell could I do it? Could I do it? Would the wife understand my way of living and eating?
What the hell do I eat and what could I do instead of just protein and salad?
The worrying thing for me was temptation and falling off the wagon!
I had been really ill and not in a good state, especially in my temper and energy levels, I was having horrible symptoms and my life wasn't worth living like that!
It was the wife, the kids and the grandkids who gave me the inspiration to fight for better healthcare and get a grip of my health.
It was the great and knowledgeable people on this forum who helped and advised me on all aspects of a different lifestyle and finding different ways of having really good and healthy, enjoyable, tasty, fulfilling and lipsmacking recipes and ideas. I can have curries, soups, stews, meat cooked any which way, cooked breakfast and I challenged myself to be in charge of how I looked after myself and because it's my life and health, I have successfully been in complete control and I have never been so healthy!
Those first few weeks of realisation that I don't have a choice for ever, really saved my life. I have a conviction, and I'm fighting for my future health and well-being. I am past being worried or concerned about me and have now the conviction to do the best for the wife and daughter, and to see the grandkids grow up and hopefully my great grandkids!