Hello, I've not posted for a while, had lots going on in the real world. 14 weeks ago, I had my first review (HbA1c - 1st Review at the Docs. | Diabetes Forum • The Global Diabetes Community) where I was elated that my BS had dropped to almost pre-diabetes and how I looked forward to being in remission. I've been off work "sick" since September with sever hypertension and I'm not under a specialist and on 4-5 different medications daily to help with it. This shouldn't affect my plan of remission of diabetes. However recently my wife and I decided to split after 13 years together (4 married) (well more her decision), since then I've been in a bit of a spiral. She's currently living at her mums with our little boy (we're sharing parenting 3 days each etc) and we've been pretty friendly. We own our house (mortgaged) and neither can afford to buy the other out so looks like we need to sell. My family live in a different City but I don't want to move Cities because I want to stay by my son. Even working full time, it's not really possible due to renting costs so out of my wage after food I'd have about £20 after all bills. I would need a car to live which isn't possible on that. Anyway, as you can see I have a lot going on and I've just not gave a **** really. Eating the wrong things, crisps, little chocolate, cookies, I think I've given up! As I write this I'm getting upset but then I get angry and I just don't care. I'm pretty heartbroken, I think more because I will now become a weekend Dad, I wont see my son for bedtime, for morning time, dinner time, I'm struggling with this so much. My son is disabled and has complex needs and I just want to be with him and it's now not possible. I'm not that fussed about my marriage, I know that's part of life, but to only being able to be with my son at weekends I can't handle that and I'm just not coping very well. Tried to speak to my doctor, he basically said there's not much he can do about the marriage etc, but here's some tablets which should make you feel less anxious! No point as I'm not really taking any of my meds, not testing by BS, I'm getting about 2-3 hours sleep a night. I feel better on the days I have my son but that only lasts a day or so as I know he then will be going away from me for a few days. I'm not really sure of the point of my post. I just don't really have anyone to talk to. Can't really talk to my family and I don't have many friends. Can't bring all this up to my wife (well ex) because she will think I'm trying to emotionally blackmail or make her feel guilty when in truth, seeing what's been said by her I am not ***** about us not being together, I've not even fought for her to stay. It's more around my son. Her and her family are "encouraging" me to move out so that I can move on (more so she can come back to the house!) but it's not that easy. I don't just have the money to go. Anyway, I'm going to stop now. I feel like my head is going to explode. I know I'm not the first persons who's relationship has broken down, or a parent not being able to see their kid everyday but I'm just struggling in life and I'm not doing my medical issues any favours. I'm really sorry for such a depressing thread. I think I just needed to put it down. Anyway, take care.