My update for today is that I am very nearly hitting 'normal' with glucose fasting tests overnight, and my other numbers are solidly in pre-diabetic. This is encouraging and interesting to me. Your support as a group has been immense and palpably helpful. Today I will speak to my psychotherapist about this and look at mindset issues, as well as the quest for stress reduction and by that I mean the capacity to go into 'disaster mode' thinking. Everything is baby steps, for sure. I am reminded to stay in the moment, and this will be my best advice, I'm convinced. Walk forward, until I can run. Continuing on and wishing you your own continued success and peace.