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@Cabrinil2018
Looks like you have come to realise what everyone with diabetes eventually does. It's your diabetes, you have to find a way to be healthy and enjoy your life.
The people around you no matter how caring they are don't have diabetes, they don't understand what you are going through or the daily struggles you have.
Even most of the health care professionals I've come across seem to get their knowledge from the daily newspapers, their advice especially on a suitable T2 diet is often misleading and usually wrong
That's why this forum is so valuable, we have all been where you are now, faced the same fears and problems. If we can help with advice or suggestions we will, if we can't come up with any useful advice we will always listen and understand.