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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Pump
Since I started running my bg higher to get hypo awareness back, I'm afraid I've lost all motivation to get better control again. I do now have SOME hypo awareness, although it tends to come and go in fits and starts. For example I have had clear warnings at 3.5 but have again been below 2.0 with no warnings at all.
To add more misery to it, my last hba1c was an incredible 8.4 (I say incredible because I'm normally around 7.5). I have posted before about my dilemma of whether to run lower to improve my hba1c and possibly lose hypo warnings again, or to continue to run higher with a rubbish hba1c but with hypo warnings. I am seeing my consultant in May but knowing me I will just go in and pretend everything is fine, and come away wishing I'd been more honest.
I just can't 'be bothered' to try any more. I'm sick of doing all the blood tests, and have lately gone through the day maybe testing once or twice, instead of the usual 5 or 6 times. And when I have tested I've hardly been able to look at the result, through fear of it being sky high. Then I overcompensate with correction does through disgust at being so high. I know the problems but I'm just tired of it and I fear I'm becoming stuck in a rut.
Sorry to go on guys.
To add more misery to it, my last hba1c was an incredible 8.4 (I say incredible because I'm normally around 7.5). I have posted before about my dilemma of whether to run lower to improve my hba1c and possibly lose hypo warnings again, or to continue to run higher with a rubbish hba1c but with hypo warnings. I am seeing my consultant in May but knowing me I will just go in and pretend everything is fine, and come away wishing I'd been more honest.
I just can't 'be bothered' to try any more. I'm sick of doing all the blood tests, and have lately gone through the day maybe testing once or twice, instead of the usual 5 or 6 times. And when I have tested I've hardly been able to look at the result, through fear of it being sky high. Then I overcompensate with correction does through disgust at being so high. I know the problems but I'm just tired of it and I fear I'm becoming stuck in a rut.
Sorry to go on guys.