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- Type of diabetes
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Crowds of people, my idea of hell would be a huge gathering of any sort!
Heights, scare me to death!
Liars, cheats. poseurs, any kind of violence, thieves and people who take advantage of others.
The way the world is going to hell in a handbasket.
Global warming, the melting ice caps, whaling..I mean what for?!
Cruelty
Having to give up my eat everything philosophy..and I really really dislike consequences.
Today I had a good day. A very good day in fact and let me tell you why.
We have a lovely place here, a couple of acres in the middle of nowhere with a winding drive from the gate then a bit of hill up to the house. My partner works very hard outside, in fact when it's raining he's like a caged animal. We have been here 8 years and when we arrived neither of us were aware that he had a cardiomyopathy and I must, at the very least, have been pre-diabetic. To keep this place looking wonderful, it took us both, working together. We enjoyed it, it was good achieving what we set out to do then he was diagnosed with a dodgy heart. We coped with it, he does as much as he can, in fact sometimes more than he should but as my diabetes progressed I was able to do less and less. Came the day that I was raking up hedge clippings (we have a LOT of hedges) and suddenly I couldn't do it anymore. He had to help me up the hill to the house where I lay down feeling like death. Even then I had no idea what was going on. I plodded on, doing less to help and feeling absolutely lousy most of the time, Strange to say, it didn't occur to me to go see a doctor, I suppose I was hoping it would put itself right. I was eventually diagnosed when I went to the doc for something totally unrelated and the upshot was "You have diabetes". I knew nothing, less than nothing about it and took the docs advice, took my Metformin and thought that the drugs would cure me. They didn't of course and up went my meds and THEN I started to research my condition and found you guys.
To say that was a turning point would be putting it mildly. I learned boat loads of stuff, some went floating right over my head and other stuff hit me between the eyes. I started consciously to think about the kind of carb and the amount I was eating. I adjusted, tested, tested and tested. I have become very good at what spikes me and what doesn't and the result was my very good day today.
For sometime now I have been able to resume my role in our lives here but it was only today that I realized it. Remember The Blues Brothers? When Jake is standing in the church and that big beam strikes him and he yells "I can see the light!". That was me today, I suddenly realized that I felt wonderful, standing there with my rake in my hand and my big steel capped boots on my feet, feeling the wind in my face, hearing the birds yelling their heads off in the trees I was suddenly struck dumb (not a feeling I am very familiar with
) and saw in stark relief that day when I almost collapsed, it stood out in my mind in total contrast to how I felt today. Today I was aware of my energy, of my body reveling in being able to achieve, without hesitation what I wanted it to and of my mind doing all that I needed it to. I swear I could feel the blood coursing through my veins and if that sounds far fetched I'm not even going to apologize.
I know that I am probably preaching to the converted but I have to say this. It's been a horrible journey this diabetes thing. Always difficult to deal with and hard to learn about but I kept plodding on, every day just trying my hardest to do what I had to and today I realized that I have at last got my reward. I will never be free of it, I will never again be 17 and carefree but I have got here, at this stage of life with new hope and a new lesson learned.
Never think, for an minute, that your life is over because you have been diagnosed with diabetes. It's not. Maybe your journey will seem nigh on impossible but I'll tell you this, I haven't felt this good for a very very long time and there is NO way I will be going backwards.
If you have stuck with this post to the end then thank you. And thank you for being there for me when I have needed you.
We have a lovely place here, a couple of acres in the middle of nowhere with a winding drive from the gate then a bit of hill up to the house. My partner works very hard outside, in fact when it's raining he's like a caged animal. We have been here 8 years and when we arrived neither of us were aware that he had a cardiomyopathy and I must, at the very least, have been pre-diabetic. To keep this place looking wonderful, it took us both, working together. We enjoyed it, it was good achieving what we set out to do then he was diagnosed with a dodgy heart. We coped with it, he does as much as he can, in fact sometimes more than he should but as my diabetes progressed I was able to do less and less. Came the day that I was raking up hedge clippings (we have a LOT of hedges) and suddenly I couldn't do it anymore. He had to help me up the hill to the house where I lay down feeling like death. Even then I had no idea what was going on. I plodded on, doing less to help and feeling absolutely lousy most of the time, Strange to say, it didn't occur to me to go see a doctor, I suppose I was hoping it would put itself right. I was eventually diagnosed when I went to the doc for something totally unrelated and the upshot was "You have diabetes". I knew nothing, less than nothing about it and took the docs advice, took my Metformin and thought that the drugs would cure me. They didn't of course and up went my meds and THEN I started to research my condition and found you guys.
To say that was a turning point would be putting it mildly. I learned boat loads of stuff, some went floating right over my head and other stuff hit me between the eyes. I started consciously to think about the kind of carb and the amount I was eating. I adjusted, tested, tested and tested. I have become very good at what spikes me and what doesn't and the result was my very good day today.
For sometime now I have been able to resume my role in our lives here but it was only today that I realized it. Remember The Blues Brothers? When Jake is standing in the church and that big beam strikes him and he yells "I can see the light!". That was me today, I suddenly realized that I felt wonderful, standing there with my rake in my hand and my big steel capped boots on my feet, feeling the wind in my face, hearing the birds yelling their heads off in the trees I was suddenly struck dumb (not a feeling I am very familiar with
) and saw in stark relief that day when I almost collapsed, it stood out in my mind in total contrast to how I felt today. Today I was aware of my energy, of my body reveling in being able to achieve, without hesitation what I wanted it to and of my mind doing all that I needed it to. I swear I could feel the blood coursing through my veins and if that sounds far fetched I'm not even going to apologize.I know that I am probably preaching to the converted but I have to say this. It's been a horrible journey this diabetes thing. Always difficult to deal with and hard to learn about but I kept plodding on, every day just trying my hardest to do what I had to and today I realized that I have at last got my reward. I will never be free of it, I will never again be 17 and carefree but I have got here, at this stage of life with new hope and a new lesson learned.
Never think, for an minute, that your life is over because you have been diagnosed with diabetes. It's not. Maybe your journey will seem nigh on impossible but I'll tell you this, I haven't felt this good for a very very long time and there is NO way I will be going backwards.
If you have stuck with this post to the end then thank you. And thank you for being there for me when I have needed you.
