Oh Ann, I felt the same as you at first, but the more I looked into it, the more I realised it wasn't entirely my fault anyway. I'll let you do your own research to form your own opinion, but have a look first at a website called bloodsugar101, it explains why you didn't cause your diabetes and is a really interesting read. I found out 2 weeks ago and thanks to everything I've read I've now realised I shouldn't be ashamed. I'm still not making it general knowledge though - not because I'm ashamed (because I don't think I am now). but because I don't want to hear people asking if I should be eating this, that, or the other. If you check out my first ever post here, you'll see it was almost identical to yours, so you're not alone.
There is help out there generally, but you'll need to fight for it. I had to specifically ask my GP for certain things, which I would never have even thought about if it wasn't for the research I'd done and also things I'd read on the forum here. My advice would be to have a read around the forums, read bloodsugar101 and do some research into the low carb high fat diet for diabetics (it goes against what most out of date doctors suggest, but doctors in Scandinavia are very familiar with it now and I think it will go mainstream over here at some point).
Hugs x
Edited to add: I'd also recommend getting a glucometer - check out the SD Codefree from HomeHealth...the strips are about 25% of the cost of my previous meter.