Hi
@Dana_Heath , please accept the virtual hug I just gave you.
I had never really considered my anniversary in any way, either positively or negatively - indeed it had always passed me by. Until recently, that is - which is why your post has really got my attention.
Ten years in and yes you can be so proud! Absolutely wonderful that all is well.
But I know what mean about it being a sad thing too. As for 'better without' - deep down I know what I'd prefer, of course, but I don't have the choice - instead, for good or bad, I am the Snapsy I am today as a result of everything in my 41 years so far, including 29 years 10 months of type 1 diabetes.
Which brings me on to..... my 30th. May 9th this year. A wacky part of me wants to have a massive party - very very odd as I'm not remotely sociable - but I think it would be more to stick two fingers (sorry) up at it rather than an actual celebration
per se.
Although I too am proud. Gosh, it's difficult, isn't it?
Cake or no cake, that is the question....
Flippancy aside, I really do get what you're saying. I
really do. Be proud, but do give yourself permission to mourn if you need to. I shall be thinking of you tomorrow, and I hope your day will be a good one.