I feel you will be writing a very different post in six months! I can't actually remember a time that I wasn't diabetic! But a few year ago a boy in my sons class probably around 10 years old was diagnosed and I remember feeling quite 'down' about it! I remember telling my diabetic nurse about it as I couldn't get it out of my head! I remember her saying it must stir some emotions, somehow, what has always been there for me I still wouldn't wish on my worse enemy let alone a ten year old boy!! Diabetes is hard but...you will feel much more confident in the months to come and the lack of energy etc will come back as the medication starts to make you feel more 'normal' As for the anxiety and depression, I can relate to this also through many trials and tribulations in life and diabetes does not really help the equation. Talk to your GP as a short course of counselling to get you through this difficult time may help you, somehow talking to someone unrelated to your life can be a godsend! You are a fitness instructor so I am sure you will embrace the healthy living aspect of living with diabetes! I am new to this forum like you but hope to stick around and would love to hear a future post from you!